Thursday, March 27, 2014

Goodbye

This afternoon my uncle passed away. While it was something that my family had all been expecting for a rather long time, it was still sad and bittersweet. I will be eternally grateful that my mom, sister, and I were able to be with my aunt when it happened and that she didn't have to be alone.
"Do not stand at my grave and weep 
I am not there. I do not sleep. 
I am a thousand winds that blow. 
I am the diamond glints on snow. 
I am the sunlight on ripened grain. 
I am the gentle autumn rain. 
When you awaken in the morning's hush 
I am the swift uplifting rush 
Of quiet birds in circled flight. 
I am the soft stars that shine at night. 
Do not stand at my grave and cry; 
I am not there. I did not die."
Rest in Peace Uncle Jimmy. Love you always.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

5 Facts About Me

1. I am fascinated by planes. I can't stand flying on a plane with a hundred potentially infectious strangers but the excitement of traveling, seeing new places, and being 30,000 feet in the air gives me butterflies. One of the things on my bucket list is to get my private pilot license so I can at least fly myself short distances. I can sometimes be found sitting in my driveway staring up at the sky and watching the planes take off and land (I live right by the main airport's runway). I think a part of it also has to do with my obsession with wings. I think people should have wings, they just look awesome.

2. I so badly want to love running. I have friends and coworkers that run and love it. I have tried, for several years now, to enjoy running- but so far no go. I think it's because no matter what I do I can't seem to breathe comfortably when I do it, so I spend the entire time gasping and miserable. I've even been to a cardiologist in hopes of finding something that causes me incessant lack of breath, but aside from an unusually high heart rate, nothing showed up. I'm again trying one of those Couch-to-XK programs but sticking with it is the main challenge (especially when I work night shift 3-4 days a week).

3. I am addicted to cupcakes and beer. My dream, should I not have to worry about loans, paying my bills, or going broke, would be to own a cupcake bar and brewery. I could serve cupcake flights AND beer flights; maybe cupcakes made with beer. There are endless possibilities but it's also one of those dreams that will most likely never happen...b/c I want to live a lifestyle at the level in which I can afford whatever I want. Money, to a certain extent, does equal happiness and it definitely doesn't come from home brewed beer or home baked cupcakes!

4. I really have no idea what to do with my life. I'm now in the medical field so I'm going to keep with that theme, but I already know I don't like hospitals. It's also questionable as to whether or not I truly like people. I keep getting pulled back to public health/epidemiology but there's so much schooling that stands in my way. Good thing I'm okay with being a professional student.

5. I'm super excited for it to start warming up. Warm weather=boating=wakeboarding=floating&drinking.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

So much for private.

Given the ridiculous number of emails (love you all, really!) I've received about not being able to access my blog with the invite I sent (or deleting the invite, not being able to find the invite, not being able to read the invite, etc) I'm making this blog PUBLIC again. I'm not sure how my sister was able to get everyone on hers but it definitely has not gone smoothly for me. I will resume being a little more candid about what I post and hopefully my friends and family are still able to access the blog as they have before.

Friday, March 14, 2014

I Love Laird

I do have to bribe him for his love with mini M&M's, but I figure that will change with age. I anticipate in the future having to bribe him with ice cream, toys, trips to the movies, snow skiing, wake boarding, rides in my private plane, beer, money, and the joy of mucking some horse stalls.









Here's What's Going On...

-I have been accepted to 1/4 graduate schools that I applied to. I haven't heard from the other 3 yet and I'm getting very impatient!
-I am restudying for my personal trainer certification. I didn't fail it; I just never took it because I was so focused on the GRE and grad school applications
-Alister is studying for the GRE, followed by studying for his CCRN (critical care certification), followed by applying for CRNA school, followed by being my house-husband for 6 months while I'm in school and he is not (turn about is fair trade)
-The pets all seem to be doing well considering 2/4 have had cancer already. On the flip side, both dogs are now at the upper limit of the "average life expectancy" for their breeds and still super-active so maybe I'm doing something right!

-Alister and I's next planned trip is to New Jersey in May for my brother-in-law's 40th birthday. We snagged "free" flights on Southwest and are hoping to get tickets to Jimmy Fallon that Friday night (haha, those things sell out in seconds)
-Work is fine given that nursing is definitely not my passion. I do prefer ICU though because if things go well, my patients are intubated and sedated. If they're not knocked out, I have a tendency to get the crazy ones that have a fondness for calling me various derogatory terms. I actually enjoy those patients though because at least I don't have to feign compassion for them
-I am super in-love with my nephew Laird whom I recently discovered only loves me back because I bribe him with mini M&M's. No really, he associates "Ali" and "MM's" every time but I'll take it!
-I am still flying through library books although not as frequently as before; the more I check out at one time the more rushed I feel to get through them and it's ruining some of the enjoyment
-I am addicted to Instagram (aatripp) and Snapchat. I've deleted Facebook AGAIN because I rarely got on and didn't need all my stuff out there for the world to see (although apparently even if I permanently delete it the info is still floating around on the WWW)
-I just bought the ZenLabs 13.1 Trainer. I don't want to run a planned marathon and I super-hate running, but it's the cheapest way for me to get in shape. While I'm not outwardly obese, I find myself getting out of breath going up steps, I get tachycardic walking around the block with the dogs, and I have a persistent pooch that shouldn't exist on someone who's never given birth. There's no excuse for any of that, especially since my education has taught me to know better
-I haven't eaten any baked goods, candy, sweets, soda, juice, or alcohol since Tuesday morning. I'm hoping to continue that trend (with the exception of alcohol which I must have to survive my chosen career path) but it's hard. I still eat flavored yogurt, fruit, and put coconut sugar in my coffee so I haven't given up sugar completely but it's a start
FYI if you enjoy coffee look up Raleigh Coffee Company; it's owned by Alister's cousin

As more things come up I'll continue to post, but I'm hopeful that this being a private blog will make things flow more easily!

Private Blog

As of this evening, I have made this blog private/invitation only. I discovered that I wasn't feeling the urge to post as much because, as this was open to the public, I felt like I had to be more discrete about what information I put out there. While I realize that anything on the internet can be found by very determined seekers, in general I feel more safe when I have a good idea of who is looking at my writing. If you have been invited to read this blog, and you know people who aren't able to access it, please let me know so I can send them an invitation also.

More posts to follow...

Monday, March 3, 2014

RNIA

eating/drinking: a smoothie made with soy milk, flax seed, chia seeds, spinach, banana, and peanut butter

feeling: okay. i didn't have to work tonight, which is always a plus. i worked out tonight, which is always surprising. the house is semi-clean so i don't feel like a total slob. so all-in-all, okay

listening: to the tv, the dog snoring

watching: the bachelor "the women tell all". i hated this season but i'm determined to follow through until the end

reading: "pure, white, and deadly" by john ludkin. i'm trying to convince myself to give up sugar so this is part of the attempt

loving: my family and pets

disliking: this bipolar weather still. i was wearing a tank top yesterday and sitting outside in the sun, tonight there is sleet and ice covering the ground. it's exhausting; i really just want to live in a place that has 4 distinct seasons, if that even exists

thinking: juan pablo is the most god-awful bachelor ever. he is completely clueless and his douchiness isn't attractive even in the "bad-boy" type of way

hoping: that i get into my first choice grad school, and that ab gets into that same school. we really don't want to do long distance again and i really don't want to attend an online-only program

wishing: i could give up sugar easily, stop buying things on amazon.com easily, and resist watching stupid crap like "the bachelor"