Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Instagram & Updates

So much for NaBloPoMo!

As I sit here icing my left knee (doh!) I decided it would be a good time to update my [few] readers on how things have been going. For one, I hurt my knee. It was that Jillian Michaels bitch; she is the devil and we are currently taking some time apart (although I plan on resuming my relationship with her in a few days). I am however continuing to run, because I know (as well as many of you do) that if I take time off from that, I have to start all over. I'm up to running 45 minutes at a time and I refuse to break the flow now (hence the ice...and ibuprofen...and ACE bandage ).

Work is going...okay. ICU is an entirely new world, and that world is filled with poop, overdoses, schizo's, and people whose families will not let them rest in peace. Needless to say, it's already wearing me out- emotionally and physically- and I'm in awe of those ICU nurses who do it their entire lives. They are definitely a special breed all of their own. I'm trying to hang in there the best that I can, but I don't see ICU being a long-term location for me.

As for everything else, it's hard to believe that summer is almost over- it's about to be August? That's crazy. Although I am looking forward to some fall weather...if NC and Mother Nature so choose to grant us seasons this year! The pets, AB, and family are all well, and we're trying to spend as much time as we can on the lake as opposed to sleeping (which night shift has been causing me to do extensively). Some in-laws are coming in to town this coming weekend and that should be a fun time; aside from Laird they're the only other nephews/niece that I have. I also have something else exciting (for me) in the works, but don't want to jinx it, so once it's more solid I will tell everyone what that actually is (oooo shady, I know).

Now, some Instagram:

Saturday, July 27, 2013

RNIA & Facebook Divorce

eating/drinking: water. i'm in between running and jillian michaels 30 day shred

feeling: tired, but better than i was this morning. night shift has finally started exhausting me and i feel like all i want to do is sleep on the weekends

listening: to my dog gnawing on his foot, the cat's collar jingling while she licks her paws, and the tv

watching: a re-run of castle; my current favorite show to watch massive amounts of re-runs of

reading: bitter harvest by michael hicks; yes, i'm still working on that one (it's good, i've just been slack on reading lately)

loving: that i'm finally able to run 40 minutes without becoming out of breath. my former preceptor at work convinced me to slow my butt down until my lungs can catch up and while i hate running 14 minute miles at least i'm doing it! also, trader joe's cookie butter and dogfish head beer

disliking: my sheer exhaustion all of the time (not to mention a few other things, but i'll save those rants for a later post)

thinking: the same blank canvas has been sitting on the easel for weeks now. i told my husband i'm going to just sign my name at the bottom and title it "empty dreams"

hoping: i can get out of this mental slump sometime soon

wishing: that all of this exercising would actually result in some sort of weight loss but no, my body hangs on to fat like it's about to be starving on a deserted island

Tomorrow will mark my divorce from Facebook at 2 weeks; I actually cannot believe that I haven't even had the urge to get on there once. I guess that's a sign that it really wasn't for me anymore. I do, however, love Instagram- so if you have an account and I don't follow you, please let me know what your username is!

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Crack in a Jar

AB and I have discovered crack in a jar ie Trader Joe's Cookie Butter. There aren't even words to describe how amazing this stuff is. It's like peanut butter...with crushed ginger snaps...and something else that's super yummy...Speculoos? Their mini Reese's Cups are pretty awesome and addictive too.

Instagram Lake

Friday, July 19, 2013

Pics and Prompt

AB and I are now off of work until Monday night so we're celebrating with homemade margaritas. I have to admit that they're exceptionally good this time.

I'm also continuing to work out with Jillian Michaels (granted, we've had a love-hate relationship recently) and run/ellipticate but this overwhelming heat and humidity has made the running part unusually hard lately. My in-laws were kind enough to snatch up a treadmill from one of their neighbors for me about a year ago, and due to it's size and weight it's always stayed in the garage. However, I've discovered that I'm a better afternoon/evening runner than morning one and it was becoming more than miserable to hit the pavement (or stay in the garage) due to it being way warmer at night. AB and I did some plotting and measuring, and determined that we could squeeze the treadmill in next to my baby grand. While it looks cramped, it's only for the summer, and happily for me, I'm able to watch TV from where it sits!

Prompt: Do you feel that you are connected to your community?

My gut instinct was to say "no", mainly because of my overwhelming antisocial-ness, but then I remembered that I'm an RN and I spend 36 hours a week taking care of the community. So...yes.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Candles and Fitness

The other day my youngest sister informed me that she had sent me something from Bath & Body Works. Since I rarely ever shop there I was definitely curious as to what it would be, and I admit, I was guessing some kind of bath soap. I was then pleasantly surprised yesterday by a semi-heavy B&B box waiting for me on my front porch. Always the typically impatient person, I ripped into the box and was treated to 2 very nice candles, both ironically named "Lakeside" and "Boathouse Row" (she knows me so well!). I immediately lit the Lakeside one, partially out of curiosity and partially because one of the dogs had horrible gas and the scent was becoming overwhelming. Needless to say, both candles have a crisp refreshing scent, and based on their sizes, will hopefully last for several burns.

I've also been spending the past week exercising way more than I usually do. While AB claims he loves the way I look, I feel like the only muffin in my life should be the one I eat. In addition to continuing the Couch to 10K program, I started doing Jillian Michaels' Ripped in 30 DVD. I've had several of her DVD's for months now (okay, maybe even years) but aside from a brief attempt at her 30 Day Shred back in nursing school, they haven't been touched...actually, I think several are still in their wrappers. I digress. The "Ripped in 30" program is 4 weeks worth of workouts, designed to be completed for 5-6 days/week. As of today I will have completed Week 1 (with my super heavy 3 lb weights) and am secretly dreading Week 2 (she doesn't mess around). Between the DVD, running 3 days/week, and doing the elliptical 2 days/week, I've managed to lose 2 lbs without changing my eating habits. I know I should, but I love my beer and baked goods, so if I need to work out more to compensate then I guess that's what I will do! I will update again in another week; I don't want to jinx anything and I seem to do better sticking to things when I keep them to myself.

Day 1 without FB: No desire what-so-ever to look at it. I think it helps that AB gave his up too.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Just a Prompt

Today was a very off day in the house so I only have the mental energy to come up with a single prompt answer. While I enjoy participating in NaBloPoMo I don't feel like it's necessarily reasonable to expect people to come up with something interesting to write about every single day; my life isn't that exciting, is yours?

Prompt: Do you find it easy to go offline during vacation?

Surprisingly yes. Vacation is a time to relax and regardless of my addiction to the internet, it's always nice to have a reason to get the heck away from it! Besides, who wants to stare at FB when they could be staring at the crystal clear waters of the Caribbean?

Sunday, July 14, 2013


**I'm writing this post for my youngest sister, because she is the most entertained by my weakness and inability to maintain my splits from Facebook**

AB and I have both decided to [try to] give up Facebook. I go through an "It's time to give up FB" phase every few months, but after looking at my news feed this morning I have decided that it's time to try...again. I'm not sure why I always go back to it; I honestly think it's a boredom thing, however, I have managed to load myself up with other total wastes of time so I think I may be ready.

Aside from the fact that I already have 2/3 of my friend list hidden from view, I have progressively felt like FB has transitioned from "Look at me! My life is so awesome! Let me post cool photos for you to be jealous of" to "Save the world! Fight racism! Outlaw abortion! Obama is evil! More gun control! Let the illegals have free education while the citizens have to pay for it!" and to be honest, I can read the news for that (if even then; sometimes ignorance is bliss). I don't want to know that my coworker/cousin/close friend believes that rape victims should be forced to have their rape babies- I actually prefer to continue liking those people rather than wanting to strangle them. I've seen FB ruin relationships and I'm not interested in being a victim.

With that being said, I am, for the 27th time, going to deactivate my FB account and do my absolute best to not return to it. I will no doubt miss seeing people's photos, and keeping in touch with some family members in other states, but I don't feel like it's worth the frustration or disgust that I feel 90% of the times when I log on.

So Alex, here I go again....

Ode to My Hair

Dear long hair you drove me crazy
When you were on my head
You fell out all the time
Left strands covering my bed.

Your ends were dried and split
No matter what product I tried
You were impossible to style
Sometimes you made me cry.

But every time I tried
To get you super cut
Suddenly you looked good
And the doubt formed in my gut.

Then there came a time
When I could take you long no more
To the hairstylist I went
And watched you pile on the floor.

Now that you're mostly gone
Your remains feel soft and light
You're quick to dry and style
My decision turned out right.

But as always tends to happen
I want you long again
I'll enjoy you short for now
Let the growing out begin.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Instagram and a Prompt

On her always
Rainbow on the way to work...1/2 that week
Upside down again
Prompt: How do you feel when you're unconnected to the Internet?

I'm actually okay with it, but it rarely happens since I usually have my phone, tablet, or computer with me. I think I tend to get on the internet so much b/c it's a boredom thing, which to be honest, I'm glad I do as opposed to eating when bored. I don't think I'd make it forever without internet though; I do love my Amazon and email!

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Random Facts About Me

A. Attached or Single? Married, for 2 years as of this September
B. Best Friend? That's a hard one; AB is the person I spend the most time with and talk to about everything with so definitely him, but my mom and youngest sister come in a close [tied] second
C. Cake or Pie? Cake...CUPcakes
D. Day of the Week? Friday...b/c I don't work weekends so it means I'm off!
E. Essential Item? My tablet...I can read my Kindle and magazines on it while also wasting time on the internet. Close second- my heating pad for my ever-aching back
F. Favorite Color?
G. Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms? I think they both taste the same but I feel less evil eating worms than biting the heads off of bears
H. Hometown? Raleigh, NC
I. Favorite Indulgence? Gigi's Cupcakes
J. January or July? July- it's a little too hot in NC in July but on the flip side I'm not a huge winter fan
K. Kids? Yes, 4 furbabies
L. Life Isn’t Complete Without? Oxygen
M. Marriage Date? 9-10-11
N. Number of Brothers/Sisters? 2 younger sisters
O. Oranges or Apples? Oranges. I like apples in salads and juiced but oranges I can just peel and eat
P. Phobias? Small spaces, not being able to move my legs/toes ie like in a mummy sleeping bag or too-tight boots, germs
Q. Favorite Quote? "Not all those who wander are lost"
R. Reasons to Smile? Family get togethers, my animals being goobers, a sunny spring day, fall in the mountains, floating on the lake with a drink in hand, getting paid, watching HIMYM, going on vacation, cruising on the boat with the wind blowing in my face, Christmastime, cupcakes and beer
S. Season of Choice? Fall and spring...I love when the frigid cold starts warming up but also when the leaves start changing and the heat and humidity are leaving
U. Unknown Fact About Me? Unknown? That's hard b/c I'm a fairly open book. I'm fascinated by planes? Some people know that but not most.
V. Favorite Vegetable? Avocado
W. Worst Habit? I'm a bitch.
X. X-ray or Ultrasound? I don't have a preference; if it's my bones then xray, if it's anything else then ultrasound
Y. Your Favorite Food? Cupcakes (does anyone see a theme here?); also avocados and sushi
Z. Zodiac Sign? Pisces- explains why I love the water!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Nursing & a Prompt

I've been struggling for things to write about recently and I think I can chalk it up to the fact that work is wearing me down, although not in a physical way. When I graduated nursing school I jumped straight into working in a PACU (Post Anesthesia Care Unit) which meant that my contact with patients was limited to immediate post-surgical recovery. Wake them up, give them drugs, and send them away; no poop, no meal trays, and limited family drama. I developed an itch to try ICU nursing after a few years in PACU, partially because I had always heard that people either loved it or hated it and I wanted to find out for myself which group I'd fall in to. I left PACU this past April and started a job in an adult ICU at a different hospital. The new hospital is very clean and updated, they treat their nurses extremely well, and my coworkers are an incredibly awesome group of people. On the flip side, there's a lot of poop, retched smells, whacked out families, and ungrateful/non compliant patients filling my night time hours. Needless to say, the change has been taking a toll on me emotionally and I'm trying to figure some things out right now.

On a more upbeat note- I started the Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 DVD yesterday and am insanely sore today; maybe that means it's working?

Prompt: Think back to that first blog comment: how did you feel when it popped up on your computer screen? 

Actually, kind of ridiculous! I always feel that way when I look back over things I've written in the past; I think if I ever did manage to write a novel that I would hate it years later.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Birthday & Prompt

Happy Birthday to my beautiful Mom!

Prompt: Tell us about the first entry on your blog.

According to my first blog post ever, I was being a sheep and doing it because everyone else was. I was also at the point in my life where my cars were getting totaled (cross fingers, knock on wood, it's been a little while!) and my baby sister was getting married. I can't believe how much time has gone by! I do my best to write posts that I won't look back on and cringe but sadly, it continues to happen. I was actually scrolling over my older posts on FB and the cringing started to make me look like I was seizuring; maybe a sign that I should edit myself better?

Monday, July 8, 2013

RNIA & a Prompt

eating/drinking: water. although i did just finish off my pre-workout pb&j

feeling: not excited about going to work tonight. it's another 3 nights in a row and although i handled the immediate time after day 3 okay, my body absolutely crashed for the next two. not looked forward to being exhausted all over again

listening: to the tv. as always, it's just background noise

watching: a bh 90210 rerun is on but i've seen it so many times (sad, i know) that there is no need to actually focus on it

reading: bitter harvest by michael hicks

loving: the lake and that the water is finally warm enough to be refreshing yet not frigid

disliking: my sleep schedule being so out of whack; i'm tired at the wrong times and wide awake at the wrong times

thinking: i really do need to paint something again. the canvas i gesso'ed is just sitting there staring at me...every day

hoping: i get decent patients for the next 3 nights; not having an excessively disgusting or whacked out patient helps tons for making a night go smoothly

wishing: it were fall already (what can i say? i'm tired of the humidity already)

Prompt: Who was the first person you met over the Internet?
I honestly have no clue who the first person I met over the Internet was! I never did online dating and way back in the day when I hopped on the MySpace train I only "friended" people I already knew. The same thing happened when I joined Facebook; I didn't get on it to meet new people, only to reconnect ones from the past.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Fail So Soon?

I actually can't believe I failed at NaBloPoMo so soon into the month! In my defense I was up at the lake with no access to a computer, and my fabulous (say this with an incredibly sarcastic voice) iPhone won't let me post to my blog. Regardless, I missed a day but will continue to truck along. The challenge doesn't provide a prompt for the weekends so I'm on my own for a few days.

AB and I went up to Kerr Lake with the dogs and his and my parents and enjoyed a couple days in the sunshine, complete with smoked salmon and mojitos. The weather was wonderful, the water was warm, and the company was fabulous. It was definitely a nice break after the three days at work (which I'm back to again tomorrow). I also started reading a book on my Kindle, Season of the Harvest by Michael Hicks, and have found it hard to put down. It involves genetically modified crops, extraterrestrials, and government conspiracies. Shockingly, I love it!

Friday, July 5, 2013


This morning finished off my 3 night shifts in a row, and while I was surprisingly not tired at work, I'm finding myself utterly exhausted now. I'm not sure if it was the sole fact that I've been sleep deprived for several days, or the fact that I also poured AB and myself GIANT mimosa's once we woke up, but I've been struggling to even move from the couch for most of the evening. Tonight I was planning on running Day 3 of this week (on the C210K plan) but I'm pretty sure I would stroke out in under 5 minutes if I even considered exercising right now. Plus, I wouldn't make it very far which would bum me out about running all over again...okay and it's still quite toasty and humid outside. AB and I are heading to the lake tomorrow morning so I'm hoping to get the quick run in up there (have I mentioned I despise running?).

Do you think that it's easy or difficult for you to connect with people?

I think it's easy for me to talk to people, but not necessarily connect with people. When I think of connecting I immediately imagine something more personal and intimate. Like I've said before, I'm fairly antisocial by choice, but I'm also in a profession in which I'm required to talk to many different people from many different backgrounds almost all of the time. I only connect with a few though; I guess I prefer to talk to my acquaintances but connect with my friends and loved ones (and with them there's no issue; I'm an open book!).

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Happy Fourth

Happy Fourth of July! 

I have to keep reminding myself why this is a day to celebrate when the news headlines are covered with issues regarding abortion, gay marriage, gun control, and Paula Deen saying the n-word (wait, aren't we supposed to be a FREE country?). Regardless, I will not be seeing fireworks or grilling out with friends and family; instead I get to haul myself to my third night shift in a row and slave over caring for people who will never appreciate my hard work, and if they survive their stay will no doubt to return to their previous sh*tty lifestyle or less-than-ideal quality of living. I wonder when human beings became more focused on quantity of life rather than quality? Science and medicine are wonderful things, but I'm seeing firsthand the downfalls of keeping a person alive whose body has otherwise given up.

Did someone piss in my corn flakes? No, but I can honestly say that I will never make my loved ones suffer through the misery that others in this world do.

On a more positive note...
Prompt: Who do you feel closest to in your life?

I'll actually have to say AB- surprise, surprise! As I've said before my husband and I are both antisocial so when we aren't working we generally tend to spend a lot of time together. He doesn't talk nearly as much as I do but since he at least pretends to listen to me then I count him as my person. My mom would come in a close second though; when AB is frustrating me or simply ignoring me I always have my mom to talk to!

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

NaBloPoMo Prompt

Prompt: Do you think you still spend the same amount of time connecting in the face-to-face world now that socializing is so easy online?
Of course not! It doesn't help that I've always been antisocial but things like email, Facebook, Instagram, and blogs make it so much easier to never have to be face-to-face. Granted, sometimes I miss meeting a friend for dinner and drinks but it seems like there's never time for that anymore. I do place more weight on family though; if I had to choose between seeing family in person or over the internet, a family reunion would always win out!

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Instagram Week

I haven't taken too many photos lately because I always feel like they're of the same thing (pets, lake, family, etc). Regardless, here are all 5 shots I took over the past week!

Monday, July 1, 2013


This month I'm going to attempt to participate in NaBloPoMo again. I've attempted to do so in the past but coming up with something to write every single day for a month always proves to be a huge challenge for me. Plus I'm lazy and suck at typing; never a good combination. However, most of my readers are family and friends so I'm not worried about scaring people away from my blog with some sh*tty, lame posts (don't you guys feel special now?). Luckily the challenge provides writing "prompts" every weekday which allows me some motivational handouts. The theme for this month is "connect", and while I'll do my best to stick with the theme, I anticipate not really feeling some of the prompts and branching out on my own. To my few readers, please bear with me, and if you can't suffer through one of my posts I completely accept that you'll scroll right on by!