Saturday, December 31, 2011

My Personal Year in Review

I've done this for the past few years so I'm keeping the tradition alive.

-What was the best thing that happened to me this year? AB and I got married- and our wedding was AWESOME. I think everyone had a good time and it has left us with many good memories and pictures (which I need because my memory is shit).

-What did I do this year that I’m really proud of? I passed the NCLEX (nursing boards) on the first try and got a job at Duke. Although there are things about it that I could do without (or with more of), it's a good hospital and has been an awesome learning experience. I'll definitely try to stay there until I go to grad school.

-Who did I really help? Well, I helped a lot of patients. That's one thing about nursing- whether you mean to or not, there's at least one person (most likely more) whose life you have touched and made better by just doing your job. Despite not being a people person, it definitely makes me proud when my patients thank me (and when they call me the best nurse ever, well, toot toot!).

-Who do I need to thank and acknowledge for having been there for me? My parents- who are always there for me even when I make the dumbest decisions ever. My bridal party- I think I was fairly good at avoiding being a bridezilla but they tolerated every bit of it. AB- b/c he had no choice. :-)

-What are the top three lessons I learned? 1. Life is short and you never know when yours (or that of someone you love) will end. 2. People are capable of all sorts of childish, disrespectful, immature, lazy, inhumane, and cruel types things. In the hospital though they still have to be treated like everyone else. 3. I can do anything I put my mind to.

-What increased my happiness and joy this year? Having a job again. I needed to go back to school but not working made me feel lazy and childish. It's nice to be responsible for something again. Getting out of Greenville made me insanely happy also. I hated that town; now if I could only sell that house.

-What’s something I got through that was really tough? People will laugh, because not everyone is an animal lover like me- but losing Harrison was the toughest. He was one of my kids, and although he was "only a cat", he was my baby boy and I did the best I could to keep him healthy despite him having heart problems his entire life. I was blessed to have him in my life for 7 years, and although he was mischievous, loud, and totally ADHD, he loved me very much. After Harrison passed, it became apparent how insanely quiet the house without him in it. I love my other "kids" just as much, but they definitely do not have the energy and deviancy that he did. I still miss him very much, and if pets do return to us later in life in another form, I hope he's one of them. The experience also made me realize how easily our animals, friends, or family can be gone in a second- without any good-byes or closure- it has caused me to be a little more open with my feelings because you just don't know when you might not see that animal or person again.

-What did I avoid that I must pay more attention to in 2012? Paying off my debt- mainly because last year I didn't have to, but these student loans are a bitch. I'm talking an entire monthly mortgage worth each month, and since I still need good credit, it's something I have to work on. One other thing is my level of fitness; I have gotten incredibly out of shape and lazy, and although I've started running again I have a ways to go until I'll be satisfied.

-What character trait did I develop most this year? Patience. I know those who know me will find this shocking, but I need a LOT when I'm at work. Not everyone who comes to the hospital is appreciative of what others try to do for them.

-What new people did I meet that are now in my life? My coworkers- and I have some awesome ones. Oh, and my nephew/godson who is the cutest freaking kid on the planet.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Goal!

Today I ran 2 miles straight. It may have taken me 29 minutes but any running is better than none!

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Boots

Just for Alex, my new boots that I super love. And they're Uggs- which is awesome because my other pair has lasted 13 years.


Monday, December 26, 2011

Yay!

I ran 1.7 miles tonight, which means I have met my goal of being able to run 1.5 by the end of the month. Score! And I wasn't even hurting. I did however get bored by 1.5 miles so I'm not sure how I'm going to last through all 3 miles in March.

On another note, I got the awesomest boots ever today. I will now being wear them at all times other than at work.

Christmas

Christmas ended up going very well, despite the fact that it never really felt like Christmas! Alister and I exchanged gifts on Saturdy because he had to work the night shift Christmas Eve. After he went to work my parents, Sam, and my aunt and uncle came over to enjoy some chocolate fondue, eggnog drinks, and the game Apples to Apples. I went to bed fairly early since I had to be up at 6 Christmas Day for work. Surprisingly Christmas at work went well. We had just enough surgeries to stay busy, but not so busy that it was miserable. There were only 4 nurses on staff so we were limited anyways. One of the nurses brought homemade spaghetti and sauce so it was nice to have some food to eat during the shift. Christmas night Alister and I packed up the dogs and headed to my parents house for the evening. We opened more gifts, had some awesome rib roast and mashed potatoes, and spent some quality family time together. This morning we enjoyed some breakfast casserole and mimosa's, and except for the bloodhound running away for several hours we've had a relaxing day today also. I'm headed to the mall (Gasp) with my mom and aunt in a few minutes, and Alister is headed back home to play his drums. We both return to work tomorrow, but at least we had a good little vacation time.

I apologize if this post is written weird- I'm trying to type it on the new blue tooth keyboard that goes with my tablet and it's a different experience!

Monday, December 19, 2011

Poor Puppy

My pup Stetson had a dental cleaning today and ended up having 3 teeth pulled. Needless to say, he's drugged, wobbly, and none too happy with his momma right now. I was feeling like a bad mom until AB reminded me that bad mom's don't pay $600 for their dog's teeth. Now I just feel like a guilty mom b/c Stetson has such bad abandonment anxiety and technically, I abandoned him all day. And he's a neurotic...that doesn't help. BUT- his teeth are clean.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Sick!

I have not been neglecting my blog like usual- I have just been sick. I thought I was dying. I don't know what I'd do if I actually was dying but I sure felt that way. I managed to pick up a stomach virus- and not a 24 hour one. It actually was about a 52 hour one which pretty much resulted in 52 hours of achy, feverish, exploding hell. I feel all better now though, so we're all good.

Today I mustered up some energy and took the dogs to my parents to run around for a bit. This resulted in the hound running off after my dad on his motorcycle and my parents and I driving around for a little while looking for him while I panicked thinking that I got my husband's dog hit by a car right before Christmas. We found him. I was an emotional wreck and the dog didn't care either way.

My mom and I went to run errands after that traumatic experience and I finished all of my Christmas shopping. I forced my dog to have his picture taken with Santa- Stetson usually takes good photos but he looks less than thrilled in this one. It was worth a shot though. Tomorrow we're going to the in-laws for an early Christmas dinner and then Monday my pup is getting his nasty teeth cleaned. After losing Harrison I'm paranoid as hell that something is going to go wrong with the anesthesia- so I just keep praying and crossing my fingers. I don't think I can handle another pet loss this year.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Personal enlightenment for a lazyass

I was an incredibly active person throughout childhood, but once I got to college things went down hill quickly. I gained 30 pounds, I lost 30 pounds, I gained 25 pounds, I lost 20 pounds, I gained 35 pounds, and so on. My adult life has been a cycle of eating too much, exercising too little, feeling bad about the weight gain, dropping the weight really quickly, and then gaining it back months later. I’m in the health care field and I know what proper nutrition and exercise can do for a person, but to be honest, I am simply lazy.

I have an addiction to Facebook despite having a love-hate relationship with it, and I’ve been noticing how many of my friends are running 5k’s, half marathons, and full marathons now- and some of these people are bigger, slower, and lazier than I am. Motivation #1. On top of that realization, I feel fatigued all of the time. My doctor thinks it may be atypical depression (since I’m not actually sad about anything) but I’m leaning more towards the fact that I’m lazy, I hate exercising, and I love eating…and not healthy food. I need my energy back. Motivation #2. I read magazines in which the woman are active, healthy, and in shape and I’m jealous- mainly because I want to look like that and I know that I could (again) if I actually made the effort. Motivation #3.

On top of everything, both my husband and I have been packing on the pounds since moving in together. We bitch and moan about feeling fat and our pants not fitting, and then we order pizza. I’m tired of the cycle, and I want to look at magazines like “Self” and “Fitness” and feel awesome because I too look in shape rather than feeling super-chubby and disappointed with myself. Hence, my road to becoming healthy and fit again.

I have signed up for a 5K next March; I know that’s a long ways away, but with the holidays coming I know that if I set my goal for sooner I’d likely fail. I also have a crazy work schedule at the hospital and there are days when I just don’t have the energy to do anything but eat, walk the dogs, and sleep. About 2 weeks ago I went out and ran a mile. One full mile, without stopping (and yes, with warming up and cooling down). It took me almost 20 minutes but for the first time in 13 years (since my senior year in high school) I knew for a fact that my body is still capable of running a short distance. Since then I have managed to run a mile in 13 minutes, and tonight I ran 1.25 miles in 18 minutes. I am fully aware of how slow a runner that makes me, but I’m trying. I have set goals for the end of each month, and hopefully by March I can do the entire 3+ miles without stopping to walk. It does take some extra motivation to go out in the freezing cold (because it KILLS my lungs) but that’s part of the reason I'm sharing on this blog- whether people read it or not it holds me accountable to SOMEONE. Here’s giving it a shot!

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Updates

Alister and I went to Asheville over the weekend to see the Warren Haynes Christmas Jam at the Civic Center. Warren Haynes is a musician that Alister likes who plays with various bands, one being Gov't Mule (whom I really enjoy). It's a benefit concert he's done every year for the past 23 years to raise money for the homeless in Asheville. The music, to me, is a type of Indie rock but Alister might say otherwise. There was a LOT of hippies there for sure. It was a fairly good concert, but we were there from 7pm-230am and left before they finished. Several bands played and although I enjoyed most of them, I was reminded why I don't really enjoy 15 minute acoustic songs. They never end. No joke.

We dropped our pups off with the grandparents on Friday, did some chores Saturday morning, drove to Asheville, ate sushi at an awesome restaurant, went to the concert, went to bed, got up this morning, drove back, cleaned house, and picked our pups back up. It really was a there-and-back trip with little time to relax in between (not even enough time to visit the Biltmore). While I was at my parents I enjoyed a yummy turkey dinner, grabbed some Christmas decorations, and finished up Christmas shopping for Alister with my Dad at Lowe's. Once back home we've just been sitting around catching up on our DVR'ed shows.

Tomorrow I'm actually off again, which is crazy because I rarely have 3 day weekends. I've got doctor's appointments and errands to run though so it won't be all that relaxing! I've been doing a decent job running my mile every couple of days- I registered for a 5K in April so I need to start increasing my distances. It's hard sometimes with my weird work schedule. Last week and this week I'm 530am-4pm so by the time I get home I'm work out. I'm just not a morning person. I probably won't post again until the end of this week- I blame it on my early days.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Christmas Decorations

AB and I finally finished putting up Christmas decorations. He did everything outside (which I felt guilty about until I was jogging tonight and noticed all the other men in the neighborhood doing the same thing) and I tried to do most of the inside- with help from AB and my mom. I admit though- AB did most of the tree- he likes Christmas trees. Below are some photos of what we managed to get done. We have one more strand of snowflake lights to hang but that's about it.

It would feel more Christmas-ey if it hadn't been 65 and sunny today (although the dogs got to go to Umstead again which they loved). I can't complain though- I love this weather considering it's December. The only sad moment today was after we put up the tree and I realized we wouldn't be yelling at Harrison this year to stop eating it.














Saturday, December 3, 2011

Random Prompt

What was the first tangible gift you remember receiving?
So if I looked through pictures I'm sure I would recall various gifts from my childhood, but the first one that comes to mind is my "My Little Pony Pony-Perm House". I remember wanting it badly enough that after I asked Santa for it I made the ignorant decision to snoop around the house every day in hopes of discovering it. I was iffy on Santa at that point b/c I swear I heard my parents moving things around downstairs some years on Christmas Eve. Sadly, I did discover the Pony Perm House hidden in one of the entryway closets downstairs. I told no one that I had found it, but on Christmas Day, when the wrapping it was in said "Love Santa" my childhood fantasies of the fat red man were forever over. However, I was also thrilled that my My Little Ponies had a place to get their hair done, so the trade-off (at the time) didn't seem all that bad!