Saturday, January 30, 2010

Oh the snow

It actually snowed in Greenville last night. I woke up early this morning (due to the cat's harassing me for food) and was treated to several inches outside (obviously; there's a problem if it were inside). Unfortunately the freezing rain started shortly after and even Stetson wasn't fond of going out. It did slow down towards late afternoon so he got a walk but it was a quick one because it was absolutely freezing from the wind gusting. That dog does enjoy some ice and snow though. He would run and then slide because his claws couldn't get a grip. I also let Harrison out briefly and he was fascinated...and confused because the was no grass to eat (and later throw up on my floor).

I did accomplish a LOT of cleaning today. Every room is as close to spotless as possible and the amount of hair floating around is definitely down by about 50%. And my bathroom is more sparkly than it's been since this house was built. I'm just now starting on some school work so it looks to be a long evening yet.

Oh, and in honor of my med-surg write up:
Bloody wound vacs, cannulas and trachs, nausea and vomiting, constant belly aches.
Walkers, crutches, wheelchairs, canes, listening to a patient, constantly complain.
Hip replacements, brand new knees, trauma fractures, back surgeries.
Oh ortho floor, you kinda suck, being stuck on you, is just my luck.

A few pictures from today:

Friday, January 29, 2010


eating: reese's peanut butter cup cookie dough...yes, i know it's not organic!

feeling: tired. i think i slept a total of 15 hours the entire week

listening: the cat fountain. a movie playing

watching: neverwas

reading: med-surg, psych, gerontology, blah blah blah

loving: that i don't have class for 3 days

disliking: the freezing cold outside. they claim it's going to snow through tomorrow night. we will wait and see if that happens (although it is already snowing in raleigh)

thinking: i really need to clean my house. like a lot. and shave my cat. i'm tired of the shedding

hoping: that haiti can still get the help they need. that i can find a roommate to move in in time to keep the mortgage covered. that i'd win the lottery

wishing: that i could sleep for the next 3 days straight...and that it snows for stetson's sake

Friday, January 22, 2010

Finally...'s the weekend again. I think the schedule I have for this semester is going to be incredibly wearing on me; I don't feel like I got jack for sleep the past week yet the last thing I NEED to do is sleep all weekend to "catch up" (since technically it doesn't work that way anyways). Since I didn't have time to write on here during the week...

Tuesday I had my psych clinicals at an actual mental hospital. It was an eye-opening experience to say the least. I had read about schizophrenics when I took abnormal psych many, many years ago but to see it, actively, everywhere in front of me, was fascinating. I started clinical that morning being more nervous than anything else, and finished it feeling thankful for what I have and surprisingly sad for the people that are suffering such a horrible illness. I'll never call schizophrenics "crazy" again; they really are mentally ill and most of them want nothing more than to be better and not be so different from the people around them. Okay, well I have no sympathy for the serial rapists and molestors that were there, but for the most part it was just people dealing with the illness they're suffering from themselves.

Wednesday I had my med-surg clinical at the hospital and that was, well, okay it wasn't what I thought it would be. It was more of an orientation day, and although I felt that was helpful, I was also a little disappointed in the lack of things we were able to do that day. I had patients, yet I didn't, yet I did. I actually don't really know. I do know that I'm not looking forward to going back next week when, as my instructor said, she plans on throwing us out there like the Atlantic Ocean. Yes, because I want a lost and confused nursing student taking care of my family members in the hospital. Sigh.

Thursday I was in classes pretty much from 8am until 6pm. By the time I got home all I wanted to do was fall asleep. Needless to say, by Thursday I hadn't had the energy to shred in 3 days. No wonder my weight isn't going down and my pants still aren't fitting any better!

Today I had class again in the morning and we had the pleasure of a speaker come to our psych class to talk to us about addiction. She's an RN who has lost her licensure twice because of drug addiction (narcotics) and is now again working as an RN having been clean for several years. According to statistics, 1 in 5 nurses will have an addiction of some kind during their career. Well isn't that reassuring.

After class I met my Dad at home and we went to a nice lunch at Olive Garden (chicken gnochi soup...4 stars) before heading back to school for my scholarship ceremony. I received the Nursing Alumni Scholarship ($2500) for this school year and they finally got around to recognizing the students who received money from various sources (better late than never). Afterwards my Dad headed back to Raleigh and I promptly fell sound asleep. I had managed to drag through the week without sneaking any naps and the end result was passing out for 3 hours today and not even realizing it. I know, I sound lazy. Cut me a break though, I'm old.

Tomorrow I start the interview process for the nurse externship at PCMH next summer. I'm concerned there won't be many positions open due to budget cuts and the economy (and the fact that there are over 100 students competing for them), but I'm really hoping I can get one of the spots. I need the experience, not to mention the money, before graduation. All I can do is put my best foot forward though, so I'll see where that gets me!

Monday, January 18, 2010


I haven't posted anything for several days because I'll be honest, my weekend was incredibly uneventful (yet also unstressful so that's always nice). I had a good long list of things I needed to accomplish and out of about 12 I managed to get 2 done; I've always been a master procrastinator. Unfortunately, that means that most of today I will be playing catch-up (which I should be used to by now) on all of my reading and written work for this upcoming week. I was hoping to mark some more things off my list but I always forget that MLK is actually a recognized holiday (although I don't know why b/c I don't recall there being any holidays for a white guy minus the random president's holidays which no one but the USPS celebrates...just saying) and therefore many places I needed to go are closed. I'll just keep adding to the list.

I am looking forward to tomorrow; it's my first day of psychiatric clinicals and my group goes to an actual mental hospital...which makes me both excited and nervous (I mean, I have no clue how to handle a schizophrenic quite yet). Hopefully our faculty there knows that and doesn't turn us loose before we're able to handle it.

For today though...much reading to do. And some more shredding (day 3 in a row...yay me!).

Friday, January 15, 2010


eating: salmon and cream cheese on ritz crackers- i know, not very organic especially since the salmon is farm raised. i just didn't feel the urge to drive across town to the fresh market and spend $10 on one serving's worth. i'm poor, can't afford that

feeling: frustrated. and really, really tired. i'm finally getting my thyroid levels checked in 2 weeks. i can't figure out any other reason why i'm always sleepy (since i know i'm not depressed) but last weekend i slept 15 hours straight friday night. that can't be healthy

listening: to harrison eating (like he does so often). the tv. my computer fan

watching: bones

reading: dear john by nicolas sparks...although about 2 pages in i realized i've read it before but thanks to my super-early onset alzheimer's i don't remember what happens anyways

loving: that i don't have class for 3 days

disliking: the freezing cold outside. it made it up to 60 degrees this afternoon but only briefly...and i'm dreading my next electric bill b/c the heat has been working so hard.

thinking: i'm really not wanting to start med-surg clinicals next wed. i was looking forward to the unit i'm on and i like my fellow clinical members but i'm not fond of my instructor and her nazi ways and i'm not taking out the trash

hoping: the people in haiti can get the aid they need, especially the medical care. that place is insanely poor and rampant with dieases and that can only get worse at this point

wishing: that i was headed to haiti to help instead of stuck in school not accomplishing half as much as i could there. i may not be an RN yet but i could probably figure out a lot which is what they need. actually, they could use any help. i can't wait until i am a full-time nurse and can volunteer with doctors without borders or something...something useful

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Med-Surg Orientation

Today was my second day of orientation, this time in med-surg. I don't yet know how I'm going to feel about my clinical instructor, but I do know that I have no intention of taking out the trash in all of my patients' rooms. Just saying. I will wipe butts, scrub penises, and clean up vomit but a girl has got to drawn the line somewhere. And that somewhere is taking out the trash which is what my instructor thinks we will be doing.

As for the hospital, I'm looking forward to the unit we're going to be on. It's a brand new building and I cannot believe how NICE the patient rooms are. Every patient has their own room, which is about the size of my master bedroom/bathroom, and includes hardwood floors, wooden cabinets and counters, and 2 flat screen TV's. Yes, TWO flat screen TV's. If it wasn't so expensive I would move into the hospital.

Speaking of hospital (and expensive), my bum student insurance company finally finished dealing with my ER bill from last July (kidney stone) and I have been blessed with a $315 bill. That's a bit higher than I was hoping for but I guess since the total bill was $1200 then I'm NOT having to pay for a good amount of that. But still...$1200 for a 3 hour visit that included nothing other than pain meds and a urinalysis? Really? No wonder people buy Dilaudid on the black market. That's just absurd. Healthcare is absurd.

Speaking of healthcare...I'm in the wrong career. The other day the weathermen all predicted snow. The schools had 2 hour delays before a flake ever fell which I guess is how you know you live in NC. Regardless, no snow fell. Like, nowhere. Period. It hardly even sprinkled here for an hour or so. And what did those same weathermen say? "Well, we predicted snow...and it CAME...but b/c the atmosphere blah blah blah the snow never made it to the ground. So although we were right no one ever saw it." Lame ass excuse. Again, just saying. Let me point out that in my career if you do something wrong you may get sued, fired, or kill a person. If you're a weatherman though, you can predict everything wrong, bullshit your way out of the fact that you were wrong, and life goes on. No lives destroyed, no money lost. Yeah, wrong career.

Speaking of lives destroyed, if I could afford to go down to Haiti to help after the earthquake I definitely would. Unfortunately, the nursing faculty are busy driving me (and my fellow students) into an early grave and my bank account only has a few dimes left in it. Sometimes I really miss having a full time job...oh and freedom. I was reminded today that I have none of that left either as long as nursing school owns my ass.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010


Today I had orientation for my upcoming psychiatric mental-health clinicals and I have to admit I'm kind of excited. I've always thought I'm a bit crazy (that was reinforced by the egg donor people telling me that I failed the psych evaluation) and maybe because of that I've always been okay being around others with issues (let's not include family in that though...different situation). Either way, I think the mentally ill are fascinating and can't wait to work with them one-on-one. We were with our clinical groups today but we had the opportunity to meet with the various faculty we'll get to work with during our rotations, find out exactly where our rotations will be, and do several role playing activities to get us prepared for our interactions with the patients. My group is going to 2 normal hospitals (psych units), a mental hospital, and a drug/alcohol rehab center. I'm happy with the variety we get and am definitely looking forward to the experiences (although, like OB, I may hate it by the end...we'll see).

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Looking on the bright side

I saw this on another blog I's an "attempt" to look at the good side of every bad thing I want to complain about (hey now, I'm trying for some optimism in 2010!). So here goes my first attempt!

Bad thing: School is a pain in the ass
Good thing: I'm working towards a degree with multiple job opportunities and plenty of room to grow

Bad thing: I can't really afford my mortgage and that stresses me out
Good thing: I have a nice house that provides a roof over my head and heating/AC and I can always find a roommate...and eventually I can sell it

Bad thing: It's too cold outside to do anything
Good thing: Every day of coldness is one day closer to warmness

Bad thing: I'm not getting married anymore...and all of my friends are (or at least it seems that way)
Good thing: I learned a lot more about myself, what I want, and what I can and cannot handle

Bad thing: I seem to have developed seasonal depression
Good thing: It'll go away when the season does

Bad thing: I'm super lazy
Good thing: I've read a lot of good books while sitting on my bum doing nothing else

Bad thing: I don't have dental insurance and I don't have good teeth
Good thing: I think I'll look kickass with brand new day

Bad thing: My car is a gas guzzling environmental pollutant
Good thing: It's roomy, comfortable, rides smooth, and deer won't go through the windshield

Bad thing: Organic food costs way too much considering we should all be trying to eat healthier
Good thing: I eat less b/c I can't afford to eat more...weightloss solution in itself

Bad thing: My cats are annoying and stinky
Good thing: I love them anyways

Bad thing: I'm about to turn 30 and I haven't accomplished jack
Good thing: Well, at least I don't LOOK 30

Saturday, January 9, 2010


eating : nothing. i try not to eat when i'm on the computer. klutziness. i am enjoying some green tea though.

feeling : lazy. i was planning to spend the day like my dog...laying around, drinking water, eating occasionally, and using the restroom...but i lost interest around 1pm. i had to get up and move all the way to the sofa.

listening : the washing machine. the humidifier. the tv.

watching : how i met your mother season 4 on dvd.

reading: southern vampire mysteries #6. very addictive. love the books.

loving: that spring is closer than it was last month. netflix.

disliking: that school is back in session.

thinking : i do need to clean...but i really would rather not. besides, my dog doesn't clean and i'm doing my best to shadow him today...although he doesn't type on the internet either.

hoping : this semester isn't too bad.

wishing : that everything would work out the way it's meant to.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

It begins again...

...well, the semester does anyways. Tomorrow classes start back up and although I began to get antsy over the break with not much to do, I don't necessarily want to go back to school just yet (or ever). I'm not really looking forward to the classes I have this semester even though I'm hoping psychiatric nursing might be something I enjoy. I've ruled out every other field I've tried so far and I'm quickly running out of options (and honestly, I was actually enjoying OB in the beginning until the scary catheter insertion).

Either way, classes start up tomorrow morning at 8am as long as it doesn't snow (haha, right) and luckily my first one tomorrow is my only one. Yay though for having a 3 day weekend this semester (no classes on Monday). I do think this semester will be kind of challenging since Med-Surg is supposedly the hardest class at ANY nursing school but I'm looking forward to that part at least because I don't feel like I learned jack last semester. No, I'm positive I did NOT learn anything last semester. Except for lochia. I've got lochia down. Sigh.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Honest Scrap

1. Must thank the person who gave you the award and list their blog and link it.
2. Share "10 Honest things" about yourself.
3. Present this award to 7 others whose blogs you find brilliant in content and/or design, or those who have encouraged you.
1. Andrea didn't technically name anyone but since I read her blog all the time, she's who I got this from:

2. 10 honest things...shoot, everything is honest! But here's 10...

(a) I take Benadryl sometimes to help me sleep. I know, I know- that's not healthy- but it works and it lasts...the entire 12 hours. It also gives me crazy dreams that keep me entertained.

(b) I pick my nose...b/c I don't like blowing it. Too much of an akward my-brain-is-going-to-squeeze-out-my-face kind of a feeling. Gross, but true. And I seriously doubt anyone out there can deny doing it at some time or another anyways.

(c) I love sushi. LOVE IT! Could eat it every single day of the week. But I hate leftover sushi. If it doesn't get in my belly within 30 minutes of being made it's never going to.

(d) I have 23 fillings. Bad genetics and years of not flossing = an expensively filled mouth.

(e) I have trouble playing a piano piece all the way through. I make it 1/3-2/3 of the way and then I lose interest and switch to a new one. Horrible habit- it means I never really learn the last 1/3 of anything.

(f) I love the smell of horse manure. It is one of the most refreshing scents in the world to me and brings to mind a great number of memories and dreams.

(g) I am incredibly shallow. If I said 1/2 of the things I thought I'd be locked up. Good thing my parents raised me to keep my mouth shut at the appropriate times. Thanks mom and dad.

(h) I really enjoy shooting my shotgun (aka Remi). I went through 125 shells a few weeks ago enjoying it. Such a release...and it feels good to knock non-living objects out of mid-air.

(i) I hate having such a bony behind. No one else in my family seems to suffer from lack of a badonkadonk except for me. And it sucks. Not because I want one to be attractive to other people but because it's painful sitting directly on bone all the time. And most of my jeans just look silly from a side-view.

(j) I would wear boots with every outfit if it didn't look stupid. I adore boots. Boots are my show weakness. One day when I have a job and less debt I will have many more boots. Sigh.

3. I don't read 7 other people's blogs! So if any of my readers have one (ie Sam, Betty, Trish, Tara, etc), then by all means please do your own honest scrap and let me know so I can head over and read yours also.

Healthy Changes

Over the past year I've slowly become more and more intent on switching over to a healthier lifestyle. Granted, I haven't really succeeded so far but since a new year is starting there's no better time to try again. One of the things I'm most interested in is switching over to more organic and natural foods and using those to actually cook with. Now, I don't exactly have a ton of time on my hands since I'm still in nursing school, but I bought two cookbooks recently in hopes of at least trying a few new recipes. One is by a cook that has a show on Food Network and the other is by a woman who has become famous (in the dieting world) with her "Eat Clean" diets and recipes. Both books had good reviews on amazon and having received them I also know that both have some yummy looking food in them. So one goal I have is to start cooking more and using healthier, more natural ingredients.

Another book I've gotten stuck on is "Master Your Metabolism" by Jillian Michaels (the hardcore fitness chick from The Biggest Loser). This book is all about how your hormones can get thrown off whack by food and environmental toxins and how eating better and getting rid of external toxins can help put your body back into it's most natural and healthy state. She can back up everything she says with actual peer-reviewed research articles and except for a few strange suggestions, I think the information is excellent. Her motto pretty much is, if it doesn't have a mother and it doesn't come directly from the ground don't eat it. Definitely a more expensive lifestyle but it's amazing how many of the foods we eat affect our metabolism and ability to burn/store fat. Just some food for thought!

In addition to eating better I intend to put more effort into exercise. Yes, exercise- something I admit I despise because I'm lazy and prefer to sit on my bum and read rather than do. In addition to walking Stetson every day for 30+ minutes I have started Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred DVD which is, well, hard! Especially when you're as out of shape as I have become. There are 3 levels, each running ~25 minutes. She does everything in circuits (cardio, strength, and abs) so you never get bored and you never stop moving (literally). I've only done it so far for a total of 5 days but my endurance is already noticeable improving. I also would like to (again) start running but the cold weather is not something I enjoy and my lungs freezing over isn't either. That may have to wait until spring. Either way I need to get in shape before the cruise in March. I hate running around in a bikini with a muffin top.