Thursday, December 31, 2009

Well Wishes

I just wanted to get on here and wish everyone a Happy New Year. New year, fresh start, perfect opportunity to make some changes that you're always promising yourself you want to do. I fully intend on taking advantage of that opportunity- and for me it's twice as much of an incentive because I'm turning 30 in two months. So I figure, new year, new decade of life, new opportunities. Here's hoping everyone has an even better year than this past one and accomplishes what they're aiming for.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

My Personal Year in Review

I did this last year and decided I would do it again this year as a nice sum-up of 2009.

-What was the best thing that happened to me this year? Okay, this is a hard one! I would say getting engaged but we broke up. I would say surviving nursing school, but I already used that for #2. I would say losing weight and getting in shape...but I didn't do that. Hmmm. Alright if I think of something I will come back and update. For now I'll stick with not getting sick and dying.

-What did I do this year that I’m really proud of? I survived my first year of nursing school. I know that may seem silly to many people, but it's hard. The material isn't hard, but the amount of work (busy and useful) involved is insane. But I made it. One more to go.

-Who did I really help? I'd like to think I helped several of my classmates out with class and clinicals. I could be wrong, but I feel like I'm the one that gets asked most questions (haha, like I know what's going on either!) and although I don't know the answer quite frequently, it's nice to be asked anyways.

-Who do I need to thank and acknowledge for having been there for me? My parents of course. Several of the friends I've made in nursing school who have been there with me through the hard and the easy times. Alister for being my best friend despite other "issues". Oh, and Krissy...without her I'd never get to go anywhere b/c of my constantly needy cat with heart problems.

-What are the top three lessons I learned? 1. As with last year, no one should have given me a mortgage. 2. You get back what you put into things. 3. Wedding dresses aren't returnable no matter what the excuse.

-What increased my happiness and joy this year? Prozac. Not kidding. If I'm on birth control pills I gotta be on Prozac too...otherwise I come close to being a serial killer. My few months on the happy pill this past year were...okay so I can't really remember much of it anyways but I know I cared a lot less about, well, everything. Not the end-all solution but it was nice for a while. After a while I decided that just going off bc pills would be more healthy for my body than being on multiple drugs. Antidepressants can raise the risk of developing metabolic syndrome by a TON. It's better this way. Less pharmaceuticals to depend on.

-What’s something I got through that was really tough? Breaking off Alister and I's engagement. Sadly I think it had been building for a little while but the irreconcilable differences got to be more than I could handle. It's just hard because he had been my best friend and it's hard to go from everything to nothing!

-What did I avoid that I must pay more attention to in 2009? Money. I spend it yet I don't have any.

-What character trait did I develop most this year? I'm afraid my stubbornness just got worse. Although being stubborn also leads to determination so I won't knock it this time.

-What new people did I meet that are now in my life? Mainly more people in nursing school. I'm surprised at how capable I am of getting along with girls; it never used to be one of my strong suits. I met a few other people in Greenville (not in school) and they've been fun to hang out with (and their dogs have been good for Stetson to play with).

Sunday, December 27, 2009

RNIA

eating : nothing. just drinking some smart water.

feeling : relaxed. not wanting to start classes just yet.

listening : to the tv. the washing machine. the dryer. the vent on the fireplace.

watching : season 5 of nip/tuck

reading: master your metabolism by jillian michaels and the 2nd book in the southern vampire mysteries series

loving : that it's still the holidays

disliking: being broke yet materialistic

thinking : i really do need to get these applications filled out

hoping : my family makes it to the mountains safely

wishing : i had a million dollars (like always)

Saturday, December 26, 2009

10 in 2010


I got the idea to do a list of 10 things I want to do and/or accomplish in 2010 from another blog I read. I thought it was a neat idea and plan to do an 11 in 2011 on down the road. So here it is, my 10 in 2010:

1. Skydive. It's something I've always wanted to do and Alex and I are scheduled to go February 20th for my 30th birthday. I'm really hoping I don't chicken out, but honestly I don't think I ever would anyways. I've had a lot of friends go and some of them were WAY bigger sissies that me (just saying).

2. Get straight A's. I've only got 2 semesters left of nursing school (not complaining) and I'd really like to accomplish straight A's in at least one of those semesters. I got into nursing school with all A's, I'd like to look like I'm leaving in the same fashion.

3. Lose the weight and get in shape. Since this summer I have gained 25 pounds. Yes, 25 pounds. That's a lot of gain over 6 months, especially since I'm not pregnant nor a binge eater. The plan for the coming year, and something so many people try to do, is to lose those 25 pounds. In addition, I'd like to get back in shape. I used to be able to walk up a flight of stairs without a pounding heartbeat and shortness of breath and by God, I would like to be able to do that again. I feel old and, well, fat, when I can't walk up the steps at school without wanting to die. I'm not even 30 yet; there's no excuse!

4. Relearn to play the piano. Now that I have my late Grandma's baby grand piano, the goal is to relearn to play it. I still know how to read music, but it's been almost 10 years and I'm a bit slower on the uptake this time. My fingers have also grown accustomed to computer keys and not piano keys, and needless to say they're stiff and can't move half as limberly as they once did. That and I have some classical pieces I used to play flawlessly and I'd really like to be able to do those that way once again.

5. Learn at least 1 type of dance. I cannot dance. I have no rhythm. I was in marching band yet I cannot match a beat to save my life...and I have 2 left feet. I would like to learn at least 1 type of dance and do it well; what can I say? Dancing With the Stars got to me as did the in-shapeness of the female dancers.

6. Get comfortable speaking basic medical Spanish. I took 8 years of Spanish in school and now for the life of me cannot understand much past "hola" and "no". I've found in clinicals that many of my patients and their families speak ONLY Spanish. I bought a medical spanish flip guide and borrowed a Learn to Speak Spanish program from my parents. The goal by next fall semester is to be comfortable speaking BASIC Spanish to my patients. It can only help seeing as thought the Hispanic population in NC just keeps growing.

7. Do something adventurous. Aside from skydiving, Alex, Karina, and I will be going on a 9 day cruise in the Western Caribbean this March (cruises are cheap right now!). We have stops in Grand Cayman, Honduras, Beliz, and Mexico. I really want to do something I wouldn't usually do, but since finances are incredibly tight I'm limiting myself to only one or two. We've looked at a zipline adventure in the forests of Beliz and I'm seriously considering one of the "Basic Scuba" courses you can do at any of the locations. Scuba is on my "Bucket List"...really need to start marking things off of it!

8. Complete a nursing externship. All ECU nursing students have the option to do an externship after completing 2 semesters of school. I'm applying to do one at PCMH next summer and am really hoping to get a position in one of my selected areas (surgery, cardio, or ED). Although they pay you to work full time, ECU also manages to charge you tuition so that you can get 3 whole credits which go towards absolutely nothing. Sigh. No wonder so many people skip college...it's too expensive. When I got my first degree tuition was only about $1000 a semester...now it's $2200. Either way, the experience would be invaluable so here's hoping I get the chance.

9. Graduate nursing school. This ones a no-brainer. I'm supposed to be done in December 2010...I WILL be done in December 2010. Period.

10. Get a job. This one is also a no-brainer, although a bit more difficult. They say to get a nursing job right out of school you have to start applying at the beginning of your last semester. I'll be doing that, no doubt, but a lot depends on whether I manage to sell my house or not. I would LOVE to get out of Greenville but I refuse to rent out my house again, so getting a job at Pitt may be my end goal next year if I have to stick around. If I can sell my house (cross fingers) I'd either really like to work at Duke again (hey, great benefits, good pay, top-ranked hospital) or get out of NC for a bit. Again, much depends on the house and also on passing the NCLEX (which will be taken sometime in January).

And that's all...my 10 for 2010. Hopefully I can accomplish all of that and more. I'll be satisfied if I just get those in though~

Friday, December 25, 2009

A Relaxing Day

Today was actually one of the most relaxing Christmases I have experienced in a while. Usually there's a lot of hustle and bustle to get ready for much of the extended family's arrival for dinner and gifts, but today there was only my immediate family and my uncle David. I did miss getting to see everyone else, but not having so much cleaning and preparing to do was also nice. We started the day with apple pie, ice cream, and mimosa's and ended it with "It's a Wonderful Life" by the fire. I can't complain! I was also glad my sister and her husband managed to make it to town yesterday evening (for the candlelight church service...so pretty) and then stay all day today.

My main gift this year was having my (late) Grandma Tripp's piano moved down to Greenville. My house isn't huge but I think the piano fits well in the dining room (I always eat on the sofa or floor anyways).





Very soon after it arrived I started playing it and was pleased to hear that it was still fairly well in-tune. I will have to get a tuner to come out once it adjusts to the humidity of Greenville but until then it sounds good to me. In addition to having the piano moved, I got some smaller, but also wonderful, gifts. A box of skeet, a painting of a horse done by Alex's old graphic design professor, new Smith sunglasses, giftcards, and a variety of yummy munchies in addition to several other great gifts. All-in-all, I can't complain. I just can't wait until I have a job again and can afford to spoil people for Christmas like I used to (although I couldn't really afford it then either...didn't stop me).

Aside from Christmas, things have been going reasonably smoothly. School starts back January 7th so I will be heading back to Greenville early next week to get the house cleaned up and take care of some things before classes get rolling. I'm not looking forward to school, but I've survived one year, I'm assuming I can do the same for this last one!

Oh, and I bought my first fedora at World Market the other day. I had seen pictures of people wearing them and loved them, even though I've never looked very good in hats. This one is a keeper, even if I do look dumb (and the pics below are ones that Alex took- she tried to make them artsy but I'm a difficult subject).


Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas

I just wanted to take a second to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I unfortunately haven't had much to blog about since school ended (grades were okay) so this thing is gathering spider webs as usual! Hopefully I have a little more to talk about over the holidays; if not at least I got the well wishes in ahead of time.

Monday, December 14, 2009

RNIA (procrastinating hardcore)

eating : nothing. although i'd love some steak and baked potato right about now.

feeling : stressed yet lazy. last exam tomorrow and i need to study but i don't want to!

listening : to the news on tv. lots of people being shot and robbed. good times.

watching : nothing of importance...my computer screen...should be my pharm book

reading: my pharm book (as soon as i quit messing around on here)

loving : that after tomorrow i'm done with classes for 3 weeks

disliking: being a lazy fatass. seriously, i have no drive to do any exercise and i love to eat bad food

thinking : i really need to study and quit screwing around

hoping : i pass the exam tomorrow

wishing : i had a million dollars

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Finals and then some

Wow, I am so not good at keeping this thing updated! Like my aunt said, it's nice to read when you can get the cobwebs cleared away. Right now I am halfway through my final exams. This semester didn't go near as well as I wanted it to but it's not going to end up too badly. Anything that happened is definitely my fault; I was slack this semester and just didn't try as hard nor study as hard as I did last semester. Next semester I'll be making up for it, no doubt. Back to studying all of the time and having fun none of the time.

As for non-school related news, Alister and I broke up and called off the wedding. We were having irreconcilable differences and it just got to a point where, even if the issues were fixable, they weren't going to be fixed from 2000 miles away. It didn't seem reasonable to get married as soon as he moved back when there were some things that needed to be dealt with. We're still talking- he is my best friend for goodness sakes- and there may be a chance further down the road for us to work things out, but for now we're going to do our own thing (which for the most part is to get through school). It sucked but seems like the best choice for both of us. I am going to hang on to my wedding dress; partly b/c I LOVE it and partly b/c David's Bridal won't let me return it anyways.

I am excited about Christmas break coming up. I did all of my Christmas shopping last night on amazon.com and an thrilled that I don't have to go out and battle the crowds. I also got 48 Christmas cards signed, sealed, and stamped and will hopefully get them to the post office Monday morning. I usually write a Christmas letter to stick in the cards but having not done much over the past year, I didn't want to waste paper to say nothing (besides that's what this blog is for). Maybe next year there will be more to talk about (cross fingers).

I'm trying to figure out if there's anything else I can add in here...oh, I did see my first vaginal delivery in my OB clinical. It was crazy to see and no, I didn't cry. I kind of cringed and held my breath but no tears came to my eyes. I can't imagine why anyone would want to put themselves through that- especially knowing that kids can cost ~$1 million to raise over a lifetime (and I'd like to see that million in my bank account). It was really neat to see though, and believe me I saw everything since I was pushing the girl's leg back every time she pushed. I'm looking forward to Alex and Kris having a baby fetus (although I think I will pass on seeing my sister's vagina in that state).

I also bought a shotgun and learned to properly shoot it. I figured since I live in Greenville and am by myself a good half of the time that I should probably have some kind of home protection other than my overly friendly dog. I considered a security system but I don't want to have to pay for one monthly. Besides, I have found shooting to be really enjoyable and relaxing, not to mention a great (redneck) family bonding experience. Hopefully that's all I have to use it for.

Aside from the stuff above, there's not much else going on. Life just rambles along like it's so good at doing here in thrilling Greenville.