Friday, March 27, 2009

Busy week

Today I head home to Raleigh so that I can throw Alex her "Post-Wedding Bridal Shower" and then pick up Alister at the airport (yay!). I think the bridal shower will be fun but as many people know I'm not a "girly-girl" so trying to come up with cutesy games has been quite a pain. Thank goodness one of Alex's friends stepped in to help. I also have to find time to study for my 2 tests next week (and I'm really counting on Alister to help me out with that), get my hair chopped (the thinning from my BC is absurd and now it's all stringy and flat), get Stetson ready for his dental, and prepare for next weekend (dun dun dun...).

All in all it should be an enjoyable week. If the weather holds off Alister and I are going to try and spend a day at the beach on Sunday...but as NC weather goes I'm not holding my breath.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Oh...sigh

Along with all the stress of school I've been a little frustrated about some things lately and since I'm the kind of person that explodes with excessive amounts of negative feelings, I figured maybe I could just release them here. I know some people read this blog, but most don't- and even if they do, well this is how I feel so I won't apologize for it. I'm a bitch, we all know this, what can I say?
  1. School is going to drive me into an early grave. I study and study and study and still no straight A's. Now, in my defense, I do have to say that the class I'm doing the best in (ie average of 98) is the only class taught by a medical doctor and the only class NOT geared towards nursing...that would be pathophysiology. I always worried that would be my hardest class, and although we learn ungodly amounts of information, it's straightforward and I like that. One right answer. Maybe I would have done better in medical school where the focus is scientific FACTS and not common-sense people-loving hoopla. Just a thought. To add to that, I truly believe that nurses get ripped off. We get taught insane amounts of information: disease pathologies, chem panel and blood values, signs/symptoms/treatments for every sickness known to man (excluding House- he knows more), pharmacology (ie how drugs work), everything...and yet as nurses the only thing we can do is provide care and support while we wait for the high and mighty doctors to call us back and tell us that we can discontinue a medicine that has our patient in the middle of an anaphylactic shock. Sigh. I know Alice, suck it up. Just get through it. How many times have I heard that?
  2. I'm tired of car places that treat me like a moron b/c I have female genitalia. I recently went to a Colony Tire down here to get an OIL change. The douchebag #1 came out and said "There's a bunch of things wrong, estimate is ~$430". And I said, "Yeah, just change my oil and I'm taking it home to Raleigh". So he did but on the receipt he wrote "transmission fluid is NASTY", "PS fluid is messy", etc. Now I guarantee you if he had been talking to my dad the receipt would have said "transmission needs flush" and "PS has leak, replace distributor cap". Yeah. On top of that I took it to a guy in Garner and he said the only thing wrong was the PS leak and he fixed it for a whopping $38. So I saved almost $400 by not letting douchebag #1 in Greenville do anything. Cut to this week. I need new tires. The Colony Tire down here was supposed to order a pair for me last Friday. I called today and douchebag #2 acted like he had no clue what I was talking about and told me I MUST BE MISTAKEN. I don't think so. It got straightened out...by two FEMALE managers at 2 separate CT stores. Now I get my tires. Finally. With no help from douchebag #2. Oh and did I mention that douchebag #3 (the oil change mechanic) forgot to put my oil cap back on and as Toyota's are so good at doing, oil blew all over my engine and stunk to high heaven.
  3. I have some family issues. Now I love my family...all of them...all the crazy, strange, eccentric, emotional, demanding, selfish people (me included obviously) that make up my family. But my LORD I have been frustrated with them lately. I don't know if I'm more upset by the ones that are overemotional and dramatic, by the ones that are nutty and exaggerate things, by the ones that never listen to me b/c well, I'm me, or by the ones that I feel leave my dad stranded to deal with his incredibly demanding, stubborn mother. Regardless, this is probably the most annoyed I've been with my family (extended included) as a whole my entire life. I guess when you get older you notice more. I still love them (all) and would do absolutely ANYTHING (short of kill one of my pets...they're my kids) for them but there's a good chance I will be MIA at the next family reunion. A person can only handle so much and until I'm out of school I think that limit is near.

That being said, I have to study some more for a test that is based on common-sense people-loving hoopla. And then I have to study for another test that isn't. And somewhere in there I have to plan my sister's post-wedding bridal shower. And get my tires replaced. And write some papers. And clean the house. And do my laundry. And finish my incredibly long patient write-up. And walk my dog. And, and, and...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Silly rumors

There are text messages going around much of the SE United States related to gang initiations at WalMart. Here in Greenville, they're supposedly taking place at midnight tonight. First of all, when a gang has an initiation, they usually don't TELL other people about it. Second, if they do "leak" a location, it's probably not the right one. It's a diversion. Like a gang would actually want cops to know where they plan on doing a shoot-em-up. Third, most gang members are idiot delinquents with a bad upbringing, low self esteem, and an intense need to fit in somewhere...like they are intelligent and stealth enough to plan a multi-state initiation at WalMart when they weren't intelligent enough to finish middle school. Just my opinion (like everything else on here).

My thoughts on this lame subject? The rumor was probably started by someone at Target and for godsakes, who in their right mind would go to the Greenville WalMart at midnight??? Everyone knows you can only go in the morning or early afternoon while the thugs are still asleep after being up all night shooting and stabbing each other. Just a fact people. Be smart. Be aware of your surroundings. Don't visit WalMart after dinner.

Monday, March 16, 2009

And things that make me...

...go ahhhh (ie the opposite of grrrrr). Okay, I'm trying to balance out my grrrr's from earlier this week, so here goes (and bear with me, I'm an incredibly pessimistic, negative person so not much strikes my fancy)...
  • Stetson's reaction when I ask him if he wants to go for a walk...or to go see Moose
  • A brand new bottle of champagne...or an empty bottle with lots of bubbly in my belly
  • Extra fresh, super tasty sushi...especially with a martini on the side
  • Harrison snoring when his paw is slung over his face
  • Indy lying upside down sound asleep
  • Thunderstorms at the beach during the summer
  • Making it to Raleigh and back without getting hit, blowing a tire, running out of gas, or smushing an animal
  • Studying my butt off and getting good results while "having no life" in the meantime
  • Family reunions sans mental breakdowns or humiliating scenes
  • Cowboy cooking steaks and potatoes over my Dad's fire pit
  • The balance on my credit card steadily decreasing
  • A day without my bastard computer shutting down, locking up, or getting a worm or virus
  • The second I get to see PSODL when one of us gets off the plane after a long break (okay, well they're all kind of long, so every time)
  • Buy 1 get 1 free sales at the grocery store
  • New episodes of LOST
  • A good book
  • Waking up to an absence of cat vomit on the white rugs
  • Christmas morning...for a few minutes my world (and family) is at peace
  • Getting up on water skiis...and then staying up
  • Cantering bareback across a field...and not falling off
  • Cake. Birthday cake. Wedding cake. Funeral cake. Any cake. I love cake.
  • A big plate stacked with fresh seafood
  • No wind in Greenville (have I mentioned that I hate the wind in Greenville?)
  • My family (immediate and extended) in good health

That's all I've got. Being that I'm frustrated (re: family) and stressed (re: school, money) and annoyed (re: my roommate's boyfriend) I'd say I did well coming up with one thing. Maybe one day when I "have a life" again I'll have more exciting things to smile about :-).

A painful realization...

...is that I truly can't cook. I know, that's a crazy thought...someone with more estrogen than testosterone not being able to cook, but it's true. All of these years I always figured it was just bad luck...or forgetfulness...or something other than just being a failure. Every time the macaroni water boiled out of the pot and burned the bottom, every time I spent more time chewing the chicken than cooking it, every time the casserole came out looking like veggie soup...I just thought the recipe was bad (no really, I've seen some bad recipes).

Tonight I attempted to follow my mom's [damn good] recipe for homemade turkey burgers. I SWEAR I followed the instructions to a "T". I even went and bought a George Foreman (WalMart $18) so that I could do exactly what she did. Yet rather than enjoy some tasty, juicy, cheesy burgers, I got to eat some mushy, over onion-ey, probably not-thoroughly-cooked mounds of turkey mush. Sigh. I give up. I'll marry a good cook or learn to eat take out for life (low sodium though...sodium is bad people).

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Things that make me...

...go grrrr. In other words, a list of things that irritate me. I promise that sometime this week I will post a list of things that make me happy to balance this out, but it's cold, wet, and foggy outside and I have a LOT of studying to do so I'm in a "Grrrrr" kind of mood.
  • My cats always wanting to be on the OTHER side of a closed door- doesn't matter what room the door is leading into, if it's closed it is an abomination to the feline mind.
  • People that don't use their turn signals, esp on newer vehicles. I'm no mechanic but I don't think car makers have quit putting turn signals on cars...even with the recession.
  • Bad drivers in general (see the "Things I Love About Greenville" post)
  • Stupid, ignorant, hypocritical and/or judgemental people
  • Clinical instructors giving us patients that don't want student nurses. If I were a patient and I said no to a student nurse you better believe I'd be switching hospitals at the next chance if they gave me one anyways. Patients have rights through HIPPA but apparently no rights when it comes to who touches them (yes I am on the patients side b/c I don't like being yelled at to get out).
  • 12 page patient write ups when most of my class is no longer doing them at all
  • Cheaters, esp ones that take no responsibility for their actions...even when you hand them the STD results from the doctor's office
  • Add liars to the above
  • Stores that advertise something as a large % off then jack up the original retail price
  • BMI
  • The cost of birth control along with the number of pro-life people (see activists lower on list). Well if birth control were more affordable (ie or FREE) and easily accessible not as many people would be having an abortion and then it wouldn't be so much of an issue.
  • The lack of variety of shows on TV even when you have 200 channels
  • The buzzer on my dryer that can't be turned off and goes off for 30 seconds at a time
  • Stetson sulking and/or eating poopy...and then needing a dental b/c his gums are infected with bacteria...from said poopy
  • Facebook and their ever-changing layout. If it's not broke, don't fix it.
  • The fact that neither fiber nor protein nor gallons of water make me "feel fuller"
  • Having a 21 yr old at school tell me I have "no life" b/c I get good grades. Granted, I may NOT have much of a life b/c I study all of the time but when I was her age I sure as hell had a very fun life. The main reason I'm in school again actually. No regrets (sigh).
  • Ghetto school kids in Greenville. Go home and do your homework before you end up in jail like the other 1/3 of this city.
  • The time it takes mail to get from Greenville to Durango...and it gets slower every month
  • Dog claws clicking on hard flooring...repeatedly...click....click...click....click...click...
  • Snow and ice in NC. One inch and the place shuts down for days...meanwhile the salt that hasn't actually kept the accumulation off of the roads is eating it's way through your car's paint job
  • Technology never, ever, ever working for me
  • Persistent trojan horses on my laptop
  • Clothing fads that look HORRIBLE on anyone except a Victoria's Secret model (b/c FYI ladies extreme low rise jeans ONLY really look good on models or those that have had Brazilian butt implants)
  • Women that have octuplets and get free medical care from Dr. Phil and therefore will never learn to take responsibility for their ignorant, selfish decisions
  • The US always editing the hell out of news stories so we really have no clue what's going on in the rest of the world...or our own country for that matter
  • The cost of bottled water. It falls from the sky and seeps up from the ground- filtered or not it shouldn't cost $4/bottle...even if it is Smart.
  • The excessive amount of celebrity gossip. I do NOT care that Jolie-Pitt are adopting their 15th child or that some pop singer insists on staying with her abusive rap singing boyfriend.
  • The cost of stamps always going up. Pick a price and leave it. For godsakes, it's a STAMP. And it's too much effort to buy one cent stamps when the new cost stamps are right there also and then the old stamps just get wasted.
  • Companies that offer online bill pay and then their bill pay website is always down
  • Activists. Saving the environment and fighting for animal welfare is nice and admirable but throwing paint on someone's heirloom furcoat or burning down a logging factory in Alaska to make a statement makes you look lame, not to mention mental. Redirect your passion in a more acceptable (and legal) manner and go have sex....b/c everyone needs a little loving
  • Drug ads that tell you the medicine will treat your restless leg syndrome but in return you may have hair loss, tooth decay, numbness in your extremities, acne, migraine headaches, heart attack, high blood pressure, and increased risk of stroke. Well that's a fair trade off...
  • The cost of eating healthy. No wonder 54% of the American population is obese, b/c 90% of us are broke.
  • A litterbox. All cats should be trained to use a human toilet if they are indoors. No matter how clean the room is that the litterbox is in, by the end of the day half of the litter is outside of the box and on the floor. And then it gets tracked into other areas of the house. And I hate the smell of litter. And have I mentioned that my cats shovel their litter around so hard that they actually fling poo out of the box and against a wall? Yes, scraping a cat turd off a wall 2 feet above the floor is a fairly regular occurance.
  • Door frames. They're never wide enough. I can never seem to fit furniture through without banging something up not to mention the fact that I have issues judging distance and slam into one with a good 1/3 of my body at least once a day. Like this morning...I thought I had left my right kneecap in my bedroom as I was heading downstairs.

I'm sure I have plenty more but I really do need to study. And if I keep adding more I won't possibly be able to balance them out with the happy ones later on.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Back east

Today I drove back to Greenville in hopes of getting some studying done before next week. I have several tests to return to and with everything going on in Raleigh I didn't get a chance to do as much as I thought. I managed to get home without being hit by anyone but blew a tire once in Greenville so I'm going to go out on a limb and say my luck is beyond bad (b/c we'll add the tire to the Trojan my computer got a few days ago). I truly believe that cellphones (b/c mine doesn't work half the time), computers (b/c mine is either infected by viruses or randomly closing programs and shutting down), and cars (b/c they're either getting wrecked or needing lots of maintenance) are just not in the cards for me. Technology does not agree with me in any way, shape, or form.

I was hoping that spring break would be a nice break, but unfortunately some things are beyond control and you have to do what you have to do. I didn't get to visit with several people that I had planned on and that was disappointing. However, I think my Grandma is doing a little better and hopefully having a home care nurse will help. I also found out yesterday that Stetson needs a dental (when he didn't one a few months ago) b/c he has gingivitis and receeding gums due to his recent fascination with eating other dogs' poo (and the friendly bacteria that resides in it). Yes, a yummy habit...no more mommy kisses.

I did enjoy getting some time with family and I think Stetson really likes having space to run around in. Overall though, the week was a little stressful. I've realized since school started that I do not handle stress well, and I believe my stomach ulcer agrees with that. Thank goodness for tax refunds b/c doggy dentals and new tires can be yet another stressor for someone living off of student loans (raises hand). I'm envious of Alex and Mom and their road trip to Texas this week (granted, I hate cars and have serious anxiety when in one) b/c it's going to be so much more interesting and relaxing than what I have coming up. The upside? Alister will be here in 2 weeks as will Alex's bridal shower...so those should be another nice relief from the constant stress!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Time in Raleigh

I've been in Raleigh for the past few days and have been keeping busy (despite it being spring break). I've gotten to use some newly acquired nursing skills in helping care for my grandma (Tripp) and today Alex and I went to Winston Salem to visit the other grandparents and my aunt and uncle. It was an enjoyable visit, although not as long as I would have liked b/c trying to avoid traffic in the evening is a chore in itself. Either way I let Alex drive b/c as many people know, I have bad luck when behind the wheel so I'm not trying to push my luck.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Spring Break

Spring Break is finally here and man, is it a relief! Granted, I will probably be spending most of it catching up with the studying (b/c I definitely did not this past week after the previous hell week before) but at least I won't have to go sit in class for hours and hours a day. That excites me...no one could possibly understand unless they've been through nursing school (or medical school) but it is a thrilling feeling. That and spring break means that this semester is halfway done, which also means that I've actually survived 50% of my first semester (there were time when I thought I wouldn't...already).

I plan on heading home to Raleigh tomorrow to visit family and then I hope to do some side visiting during the week before I come back here sometime around Wednesday/Thursday. To add to everything, the weather is supposed to be GORGEOUS- at least until Monday. It will be nice to get to enjoy some sunny, 75+ degree weather after all of this freezing cold rain, snow, and wind!