Wednesday, December 30, 2009
-What was the best thing that happened to me this year? Okay, this is a hard one! I would say getting engaged but we broke up. I would say surviving nursing school, but I already used that for #2. I would say losing weight and getting in shape...but I didn't do that. Hmmm. Alright if I think of something I will come back and update. For now I'll stick with not getting sick and dying.
-What did I do this year that I’m really proud of? I survived my first year of nursing school. I know that may seem silly to many people, but it's hard. The material isn't hard, but the amount of work (busy and useful) involved is insane. But I made it. One more to go.
-Who did I really help? I'd like to think I helped several of my classmates out with class and clinicals. I could be wrong, but I feel like I'm the one that gets asked most questions (haha, like I know what's going on either!) and although I don't know the answer quite frequently, it's nice to be asked anyways.
-Who do I need to thank and acknowledge for having been there for me? My parents of course. Several of the friends I've made in nursing school who have been there with me through the hard and the easy times. Alister for being my best friend despite other "issues". Oh, and Krissy...without her I'd never get to go anywhere b/c of my constantly needy cat with heart problems.
-What are the top three lessons I learned? 1. As with last year, no one should have given me a mortgage. 2. You get back what you put into things. 3. Wedding dresses aren't returnable no matter what the excuse.
-What increased my happiness and joy this year? Prozac. Not kidding. If I'm on birth control pills I gotta be on Prozac too...otherwise I come close to being a serial killer. My few months on the happy pill this past year were...okay so I can't really remember much of it anyways but I know I cared a lot less about, well, everything. Not the end-all solution but it was nice for a while. After a while I decided that just going off bc pills would be more healthy for my body than being on multiple drugs. Antidepressants can raise the risk of developing metabolic syndrome by a TON. It's better this way. Less pharmaceuticals to depend on.
-What’s something I got through that was really tough? Breaking off Alister and I's engagement. Sadly I think it had been building for a little while but the irreconcilable differences got to be more than I could handle. It's just hard because he had been my best friend and it's hard to go from everything to nothing!
-What did I avoid that I must pay more attention to in 2009? Money. I spend it yet I don't have any.
-What character trait did I develop most this year? I'm afraid my stubbornness just got worse. Although being stubborn also leads to determination so I won't knock it this time.
-What new people did I meet that are now in my life? Mainly more people in nursing school. I'm surprised at how capable I am of getting along with girls; it never used to be one of my strong suits. I met a few other people in Greenville (not in school) and they've been fun to hang out with (and their dogs have been good for Stetson to play with).
Sunday, December 27, 2009
feeling : relaxed. not wanting to start classes just yet.
listening : to the tv. the washing machine. the dryer. the vent on the fireplace.
watching : season 5 of nip/tuck
reading: master your metabolism by jillian michaels and the 2nd book in the southern vampire mysteries series
loving : that it's still the holidays
disliking: being broke yet materialistic
thinking : i really do need to get these applications filled out
hoping : my family makes it to the mountains safely
wishing : i had a million dollars (like always)
Saturday, December 26, 2009
1. Skydive. It's something I've always wanted to do and Alex and I are scheduled to go February 20th for my 30th birthday. I'm really hoping I don't chicken out, but honestly I don't think I ever would anyways. I've had a lot of friends go and some of them were WAY bigger sissies that me (just saying).
2. Get straight A's. I've only got 2 semesters left of nursing school (not complaining) and I'd really like to accomplish straight A's in at least one of those semesters. I got into nursing school with all A's, I'd like to look like I'm leaving in the same fashion.
3. Lose the weight and get in shape. Since this summer I have gained 25 pounds. Yes, 25 pounds. That's a lot of gain over 6 months, especially since I'm not pregnant nor a binge eater. The plan for the coming year, and something so many people try to do, is to lose those 25 pounds. In addition, I'd like to get back in shape. I used to be able to walk up a flight of stairs without a pounding heartbeat and shortness of breath and by God, I would like to be able to do that again. I feel old and, well, fat, when I can't walk up the steps at school without wanting to die. I'm not even 30 yet; there's no excuse!
4. Relearn to play the piano. Now that I have my late Grandma's baby grand piano, the goal is to relearn to play it. I still know how to read music, but it's been almost 10 years and I'm a bit slower on the uptake this time. My fingers have also grown accustomed to computer keys and not piano keys, and needless to say they're stiff and can't move half as limberly as they once did. That and I have some classical pieces I used to play flawlessly and I'd really like to be able to do those that way once again.
5. Learn at least 1 type of dance. I cannot dance. I have no rhythm. I was in marching band yet I cannot match a beat to save my life...and I have 2 left feet. I would like to learn at least 1 type of dance and do it well; what can I say? Dancing With the Stars got to me as did the in-shapeness of the female dancers.
6. Get comfortable speaking basic medical Spanish. I took 8 years of Spanish in school and now for the life of me cannot understand much past "hola" and "no". I've found in clinicals that many of my patients and their families speak ONLY Spanish. I bought a medical spanish flip guide and borrowed a Learn to Speak Spanish program from my parents. The goal by next fall semester is to be comfortable speaking BASIC Spanish to my patients. It can only help seeing as thought the Hispanic population in NC just keeps growing.
7. Do something adventurous. Aside from skydiving, Alex, Karina, and I will be going on a 9 day cruise in the Western Caribbean this March (cruises are cheap right now!). We have stops in Grand Cayman, Honduras, Beliz, and Mexico. I really want to do something I wouldn't usually do, but since finances are incredibly tight I'm limiting myself to only one or two. We've looked at a zipline adventure in the forests of Beliz and I'm seriously considering one of the "Basic Scuba" courses you can do at any of the locations. Scuba is on my "Bucket List"...really need to start marking things off of it!
8. Complete a nursing externship. All ECU nursing students have the option to do an externship after completing 2 semesters of school. I'm applying to do one at PCMH next summer and am really hoping to get a position in one of my selected areas (surgery, cardio, or ED). Although they pay you to work full time, ECU also manages to charge you tuition so that you can get 3 whole credits which go towards absolutely nothing. Sigh. No wonder so many people skip college...it's too expensive. When I got my first degree tuition was only about $1000 a semester...now it's $2200. Either way, the experience would be invaluable so here's hoping I get the chance.
9. Graduate nursing school. This ones a no-brainer. I'm supposed to be done in December 2010...I WILL be done in December 2010. Period.
10. Get a job. This one is also a no-brainer, although a bit more difficult. They say to get a nursing job right out of school you have to start applying at the beginning of your last semester. I'll be doing that, no doubt, but a lot depends on whether I manage to sell my house or not. I would LOVE to get out of Greenville but I refuse to rent out my house again, so getting a job at Pitt may be my end goal next year if I have to stick around. If I can sell my house (cross fingers) I'd either really like to work at Duke again (hey, great benefits, good pay, top-ranked hospital) or get out of NC for a bit. Again, much depends on the house and also on passing the NCLEX (which will be taken sometime in January).
And that's all...my 10 for 2010. Hopefully I can accomplish all of that and more. I'll be satisfied if I just get those in though~
Friday, December 25, 2009
My main gift this year was having my (late) Grandma Tripp's piano moved down to Greenville. My house isn't huge but I think the piano fits well in the dining room (I always eat on the sofa or floor anyways).
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
feeling : stressed yet lazy. last exam tomorrow and i need to study but i don't want to!
listening : to the news on tv. lots of people being shot and robbed. good times.
watching : nothing of importance...my computer screen...should be my pharm book
reading: my pharm book (as soon as i quit messing around on here)
loving : that after tomorrow i'm done with classes for 3 weeks
disliking: being a lazy fatass. seriously, i have no drive to do any exercise and i love to eat bad food
thinking : i really need to study and quit screwing around
hoping : i pass the exam tomorrow
wishing : i had a million dollars
Saturday, December 12, 2009
As for non-school related news, Alister and I broke up and called off the wedding. We were having irreconcilable differences and it just got to a point where, even if the issues were fixable, they weren't going to be fixed from 2000 miles away. It didn't seem reasonable to get married as soon as he moved back when there were some things that needed to be dealt with. We're still talking- he is my best friend for goodness sakes- and there may be a chance further down the road for us to work things out, but for now we're going to do our own thing (which for the most part is to get through school). It sucked but seems like the best choice for both of us. I am going to hang on to my wedding dress; partly b/c I LOVE it and partly b/c David's Bridal won't let me return it anyways.
I am excited about Christmas break coming up. I did all of my Christmas shopping last night on amazon.com and an thrilled that I don't have to go out and battle the crowds. I also got 48 Christmas cards signed, sealed, and stamped and will hopefully get them to the post office Monday morning. I usually write a Christmas letter to stick in the cards but having not done much over the past year, I didn't want to waste paper to say nothing (besides that's what this blog is for). Maybe next year there will be more to talk about (cross fingers).
I'm trying to figure out if there's anything else I can add in here...oh, I did see my first vaginal delivery in my OB clinical. It was crazy to see and no, I didn't cry. I kind of cringed and held my breath but no tears came to my eyes. I can't imagine why anyone would want to put themselves through that- especially knowing that kids can cost ~$1 million to raise over a lifetime (and I'd like to see that million in my bank account). It was really neat to see though, and believe me I saw everything since I was pushing the girl's leg back every time she pushed. I'm looking forward to Alex and Kris having a baby fetus (although I think I will pass on seeing my sister's vagina in that state).
I also bought a shotgun and learned to properly shoot it. I figured since I live in Greenville and am by myself a good half of the time that I should probably have some kind of home protection other than my overly friendly dog. I considered a security system but I don't want to have to pay for one monthly. Besides, I have found shooting to be really enjoyable and relaxing, not to mention a great (redneck) family bonding experience. Hopefully that's all I have to use it for.
Aside from the stuff above, there's not much else going on. Life just rambles along like it's so good at doing here in thrilling Greenville.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I want to play
My books remind me
Pharm takes hours
But my peds book
Is not for me.
Fresh chest tubes
Milk let down
And swollen boobs.
Kids with croup
Lots of cursing
Red rings of fire
And when they do
Trust me, you’ll know.
Give them food
Change their diaper
If they’ve pooed.
First time daddies
Oh so scared
First time mommies
The baby boys
Give the girls
Some silly toys.
Teach and teach
Use a condom
Get the kids
Are way too big
Weightloss is healthy
Eat some figs. (Um…bad rhyming there…)
I try to turn them
Throw my back out
It’s bad technique
I have no doubt.
And when I’m done
Cleaning up poo
There’s always more
For me to do.
Where’s the head nurse?
No one knows.
And when I leave
I want a nap
Instead I do
My write up stat.
For even when
I crave some fun
There’s always more
I’m never done.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
feeling : tired. it was a long day. and sore. i held a baby for ~4 hours
listening : to the clock ticking, the neighbor's dogs barking, and some commercial on TV
watching : nothing
reading: my NCLEX review book...chapter on problems with labor and delivery
loving : that after friday i have 2 weeks of no tests
disliking: that i've already failed at the running attempt b/c i'm a lazy ass
thinking : i have got a LOT of reading to do in my peds book before the test friday
hoping : the tests go well
wishing : to win the lottery, that it was already christmas time
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
At first I was scared to touch her (she had tubes and lines everywhere and well, she was a BABY) but when she started to get fussy I gave in and picked her up at which time she promptly shoved the entire end of my stethoscope in her mouth. I finally realized if I talked to her like I do my pets we'd have no problem. She also seemed fascinated with my stethoscope so if it kept her from crying I was good.
The day ended up going really smoothly; her parent's were really friendly and my nurse was great. I even learned to change a diaper and apply butt cream (not kidding, it's called BUTT CREAM). My biggest success though was partially getting over my fear of babies. I definitely don't want to have any but I won't lie; I'm super excited about my sister(s) having some baby fetus'...I can't wait to play with them and spoil them and then send them home when they get fussy or annoying. :-)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I guess I'll start with the egg donation thing. I was actually really starting to look forward to the whole process when I was informed that I had "failed" the psych evaluation. Now, I always knew I was a bit crazy (isn't everyone in their own way) but for a stranger who has never met me to tell me that I am not up to their standards was a little off-putting. The couple had picked me out from a website with hundreds of other donors on it and in a second I had some shrink up in MA judging me over a bunch of random questions ie "Do you like reading books on mechanics", "If you could be an artist would you want to paint flowers", and "Do you frequently hear voices in your head that no one else does". And sadly, I "failed" it. Oh well, there's still nursing school (despite the nice little self esteem blow). Guess my eggs just aren't good enough.
On a separate note, I have signed up to try to write a novel in one month starting November 1 through http://www.nanowrimo.org/. Actually, it's a 50,000 word piece of randomness that I'm going to attempt to come up with in 30 days in hopes that somewhere deep inside I'm capable of being an author. I don't have high hopes though since I can't even seem to keep a simple blog up-to-date. I'll TRY to update on here and let my few readers left how it's going.
Nursing school is going okay. Well, I actually despise this semester because it's just one huge, unorganized mess, but I'm just trying to get through it. I found that I actually do not like pediatrics (big surprise there) and that I'm not even that find of obstetrics anymore. I'm really hoping that sometime during these 2 years of torture I can find something I can manage to stand long enough to get into graduate school (and really, I've given up claiming I know what I want to do with that either).
The story of my life can be summed up in 3 words...I don't know.
Friday, October 16, 2009
I just finished filling out a 570 question psych evaluation and sometime in the next 2 weeks will fly to Boston to have medical tests done and another psych evaluation completed. If I pass that (cross fingers) I will proceed to being put on birth control to match my cycle with the surrogate's. From there comes the hormone injections and retrieval, but I'm trying to take it one step at a time (and trying not to think about sticking myself with a needle several times a day). The thought of flying to Boston soon just because a couple of strangers want my genes is kind of crazy. Story of my life. :-)
Saturday, September 26, 2009
I hate to study
Yes I do
I hate to study
And I know you do too.
My books are heavy
My notes are boring
If I read much longer
I'll end up snoring.
Case studies and tests
Quizzes and check offs
I just want to rest!
Smegma and mucus
Discharge you can see
What was I thinking
To want this degree?
Vaginas and babies
IV’s and chest tubes
And if you do a rectal
Don’t forget lots of lube.
Angina and stroke
Diabetes and COPD
That’s a lot of sick people
That I have to see.
TB and pneumonia
MRSA and staph
Scrub your hands hard
Then go take a hot bath.
Vomit and blood
Penises and sores
You never know
What’s behind hospital doors.
Patients that yell
Kids that will bite
That wander out of sight.
Charting and charting
I have to look forward to
And funky fluids
Spilling on my nice shoes.
Let’s be honest
It's not really my thing
But I'm doing it anyways
So I can afford all my bling.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Nursing school started a few weeks ago and already it is overwhelming. There are about the same number of classes as last time, but it's much less organized and straight to the point. It's more "figure it out yourself" going on. I'm not complaining, I just need to adjust.
This weekend I'm heading to Raleigh to potentially buy my wedding dress and Alex and Sam's bridesmaid dresses. We'll see how that goes; I'm incredibly indecisive and I'm afraid I'll pick a dress and then find one I like more...and they are not returnable. What to do, what to do.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
-More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves me.
-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
-I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they've invented the lighter?
-That's enough, Nickelback.
-I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know"feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?
-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn'twork? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.
-Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.
-I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actuallybecomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone'slaughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it.
-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
- I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately cleary our computer history if you die.
-The only time I look forward to a red light is when Im trying to finish a text.
- LOL has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".
- Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.
- How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?
- I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!
- Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in'examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and said "Yes that's G as in...(10 second lapse)..ummm...Goonies"
- While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.
- MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty,and you can wear them forever.
-I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
-Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind ifI do!
- Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?
-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.
-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incrediblynervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't bea problem....
-You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.
-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't want to have to restart my collection.
-There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
-I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.
- "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.
-I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There's so much pressure. 'I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren't watching this. It's only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'
- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle,then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.
-Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.
-I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
-Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn't know what do to with it.
-Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their carkeys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on theDonkey - but Id bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time...
-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.
-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
- I got 2 A's in summer school
- I moved back into my house in addition to putting down laminate and landscaping (hard work but looks damn good)
- I (and Alister) set a wedding date, found a location, and arranged for a DJ, wedding planner, minister, and cake baker
- I found a wedding dress and bridesmaids dresses (that alone deserves it's own number)
- I learned to wake board (going in and out of the wake will come in the future)
- I bought jeans without holes (seriously, this is something to be proud of...I was going to wear those stupid holey $200 jeans until they dry rotted)
- I helped Alister drive back across the country without ANY road incidents (plus for me- I'm bad luck on the road)
- I rediscovered the joy of Prozac
- I learned to survive not taking off my engagement ring every single time my hands had to get wet (which came after several "oh crap where did I put it???" and "um...I think I left it on the boat at the lake...")
- I saved money on my car insurance by not switching to Geico
And here's a list of the things I wanted to do but didn't manage to this summer:
- Go on a cruise (damnit)
- Repaint my house (well, I hate painting)
- Go skydiving (I'm still holding out hope)
- Win the lottery (still waiting on that one too)
- Get a new car (haha)
Maybe next summer...
Monday, August 10, 2009
This past weekend we went up to Kerr Lake and spent time with Alister's parents. I got to do some wakeboarding and Alister did a lot of skiing. It was an enjoyable time, yet also kind of sad since we won't be able to go back up until (most likely) next year. The lake is incredibly peaceful, relaxing, and pretty...the complete opposite of nursing school!
This week is going to be spent finishing things up, getting the rest of my things unpacked, and getting cleaned up for my new roommate. Oh the life an adult.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Around 4am, the pain had spread...specifically towards my right lower back area. It was a dull ache that radiated down towards my pelvis and right hip. I got out the heating pad. The pain got worse. Having had 2 kidney stones in the past, I had an inkling that this could be #3...but it was easier to be in denial and think I had one hell of a UTI.
By 5am the pain was bad enough that I couldn't fall asleep or get comfortable. I was also getting up every 15 minutes to use the bathroom, even though there wasn't much happening once I was in there (I know, TMI). By this time Alister was getting concerned and whipped out his laptop to see if the ER here took my insurance. I felt bad because he has to get up for work at 6am, so I tried my hardest to ignore the pain and go to sleep.
When 6am came, I was still awake and in quite a bit of pain. We agreed that I should go to student health as soon as they opened at 7:30; Alister offered to stay home from work (huge sacrifice) and take me. At 7am I got up to get ready and the pain was pretty unbearable. I walked...sort of...back into the bedroom and remember kneeling by the bed and starting to cry- I didn't want to move any more. That's the point where we decided the ER might be a better option.
Alister drove me over to the ER at 7:30 and we managed to walk right in, check in, go through triage, and be in a room within 5-10 minutes. It was amazing; Rex was never even remotely close to being that quick! The wait for the doctor in the room felt like it lasted forever, but most likely it was only another 5-10 minutes. Once she came and got my history, she told me they'd get me some pain meds and then take a urine sample when I was ready.
The nurse came in with an IV and for one of the first times in my LIFE, found my vein on the first try and got everything going. She was going to give me 2 pain meds and an anti-nausea one. She started with Dilaudid, which is about 10x stronger than morphine. I don't remember what she gave me after that because I kid you not, that stuff kicked in while she was only halfway through pushing it into my IV. I smelled and tasted plastic, my legs and head got heavy, and my pain just disappeared. I didn't believe it, Alister didn't believe it, but by God I felt damn good (minus the itchiness I have whenever I get narcotics).
We were stuck in the room for several more hours, mainly because I couldn't feel my bladder muscles enough to make myself do a urine sample. When I finally did (after standing up numbly and jumping in place) the nurse took the sample and I relaxed in the bed while Alister watched Saved By the Bell. The doctor came in about a half an hour later to let me know that I didn't have an infection, but that my urine was full of blood (sorry, more TMI). She said it was most likely another kidney stone (sigh) and that she'd give me pain meds so I could go home and pass it. Hello Little Bastard #3.
Alister and I left the ER at 11am and went ahead and ran some errands since I couldn't feel jack anyways. We went and measured the flooring at my house, ordered the laminate, got my prescriptions, and went by Lowe's for the carpeting. Upon arriving back at home later in the day, I still couldn't feel anything so I attempted to go to sleep, only to be getting up every 15 minutes to pee. This time though, I peed a LOT...which I'm hoping means the stone cleared on out and wasn't stuck anymore. I took an oxycodone when I went to bed last night and as of right now haven't felt pain since. The last 2 stones took a week each to pass; if this one is already out I will be beyond thankful.
I know I just typed a lot of nonsense above, but I always like to hear about other people's experiences with various issues in hopes that if I ever have the same thing occur that I will have an idea of what is wrong and what to do. So, if anyone ever wakes up with pain in their groin, an urgency to pee, and severe pain in the lower back...you just might have a kidney stone. If you have a fever, blood in your urine, and can hardly stand up from the pain...you most likely have a kidney stone. Go to the ER. They're the only ones that will give you a strong enough pain reliever. No joke, Dilaudid is my hero.
Monday, July 20, 2009
I had a dream the other night in which Alister had a truck...not a regular truck but one that had tires that were the size of a car themselves. He wanted me to move it and it had a bunch of random buttons on the right side of me. Reverse was a button. Some of his friends were there to show me how to drive it, but I quickly managed to get it rolling on my own. I pulled it into a random driveway and the reverse button got stuck. Once I got it in reverse I drove it to my parents' imaginary house where I parked it down a small road next to some construction and to the left of a large pit. I walked into the front yard and met my sister and some other people and we walked across the street and went into a museum.
I don't remember what kind of museum but there were lots of gift shops and we went into all of them. We walked back across the street to my parents' "house" and my mom, Alex, and I were sitting on a screen porch that was on the second story. The screen porch stretched from their house to their neighbor's house. I told my mom they should sell the house as one huge one now that they were connected. She said bad idea. Some of the screens were loose and blowing in the wind. Alister shows up while I'm on the porch with my mom and Alex. Mom is helping me tie something on my clothing when Alister starts slurping (literally) on Alex's face. I get mad because he's cheating on me with my sister. Alex and my mom disappear and I'm yelling at Alister while he's refusing to answer or look at me.
I storm inside and slam the door into a random bedroom (mine in the dream). I'm really pissed and walk back out into the living room. There are a bunch of people sitting around (can't remember) and Alister is sitting on the couch with my mom. I demanded to know why he was still there after what he'd done and my mom tells me I need to calm down. She offers me her Rav-4 to take to drive back to my house. I take the keys and storm out the front door. Next thing I know a guy's voice yells "WAKE UP" and I sit bolt upright in bed (in real life). End dream.
I'm telling everyone, I have crazy dreams. And I remember them. That's the craziest part. Lots of people forget their dreams but I have incredibly vivid memories of each and every one. The one above is only slightly crazy. I can't decide whether it's my meds causing them, whether my brain is making up for not thinking all day, or whether I have a brain tumor. I prefer to go with the first or second option. Regardless, I rarely ever wake up feeling rested; an unfortunate result of having an overactive imagination. I've always wanted to write a book but if I tried to use my dreams it would never be published. I would just get admitted to a mental institution.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Okay well it's not that bad. I just feel useless because I'm not working. That will go away in 1 month when school starts again full force. I'm looking forward to it; something to do!
Today I'm going to meet the carpet installers at my house to have measurements done. Hopefully everything will go smoothly and I will be able to order my carpet and laminate flooring this week. Although I hate that the house is in a less than desirable condition post-tenant, it did give me an excuse (and money) to put in laminate. I've always wanted less carpet; it gives my cats less to puke on and stain. I think everything will look nice once it's all done, especially since I have professionals helping (aka Dad and Alister). The yard battle will be undertaken once all of the inside things are finished; I need to dig up a destroyed tree (tear), add a load of dirt, and get some grass planted. Again.
In addition to the house stuff, I have started packing for my move in a week. I'm trying my hardest to get rid of more stuff so that I have less to move. It's hard though; I'm emotionally attached to everything for some reason or another. On the other hand, I hate moving boxes so maybe that will overcome the separation anxiety.
Along with packing Alister and I are going to Atlantic Beach tomorrow to look at potential wedding spots, and then my mom, Alex, and I are driving down again next week to meet with actual planners. I really hope to have things set up before Alister leaves and school starts so I don't have to deal with it. I'm not much of a wedding person but Alister wants one, and being that I love him and want him to be happy, I am foregoing Vegas and giving him one (pat on back).
The joys of being an adult. Sigh.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
As for the movie itself, it was definitely entertaining and funny (more so than most of the others) but I have to admit I was fairly disappointed. I re-read book 6 a week ago and although I understand things need to be cut out for time, I think a bit much was cut out and and random scenes were added that were never in the book. Being the Harry Potter nerd (and book nerd)that I am, it made the movie a bit more frustrating for me than for others. I would go into all the differences (which Alister and I talked about last night...b/c I'm a nerd and he's nice enough to listen to me) but most people that read this don't read the books, so it doesn't matter! I do recommend the movie though; pretty scenery, lots of humor, and plenty of snogging. Just ignore the fact that the actress playing Ginny Weasely is horrible.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
I will let those who are interested know how it is...
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Alex and Mom brought their canoe and kayak down and we managed to haul them both to the Intercoastal Waterway for a little while. Mom worked on paddling her kayak while Alex and I paddled around in the canoe with Stetson. Before we left I took a shot at the kayak...with Stetson in tow. If he doesn't get on the kayak, he comes swimming out in to the waterway after it.
Thursday was mom's birthday so we went down the island to the Fish House for some fresh seafood. It wasn't quite as good as Provisions, but the line there was incredibly long (it didn't help that it was so rainy that day). Regardless, Thursday and the rest of the week ended up to be very relaxing. I think my mom and I made some progress with the wedding plans, but we still have no idea what we're doing overall. Considering this is me, it's not a surprise. I came back to Greenville yesterday and today Alister and I are watching a Harry Potter marathon...Tuesday night at midnight movie #6 opens. Yay (huge grin)!
**All pictures taken by Mrs. Alexandra Browning
Monday, July 6, 2009
We drove back to Greenville last night and this morning I headed down to Oak Island to meet my mom, Alex, and Stetson. It started out rainy but by the time we got out on the beach there was a nice breeze and just a few clouds in the sky. The water was warm but slightly rough. Around dinner time we came back to the house and I cooked pizzadillas for dinner. They weren't as good as the ones Christina made at the lake, but I never claimed to be a good cook. Oh, and I introduced my mom and sister to the words "smegma" and "splooge".
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Went to see Transformers II with Alister and thought it was really good; definitely funnier than the first one. Tried out a new wings place near the movie theater...note: the honey BBQ and Peanut Thai are damn good.
Finished summer school with 2 A's. Yay me.
Harrison has started pooping on the rug...at first when I was out of town and now today right in front of me. It's very frustrating (not to mention gross) b/c he's never done it before. Going to try some different things with the litter and box before hauling him to the vet.
Went to the doctor yesterday and he added another medication on to my current ones. Not too thrilled b/c I'm not in to taking a bunch of prescription drugs. That and I got a whopping 2 hours of sleep last night b/c I felt like I had drank 5 lattes (and I don't drink caffeine for a reason).
Alister and I set a wedding date: 6/19/2010. Most likely it will be at Oak Island if not somewhere on the Outer Banks. We're keeping it local so family can come but it will probably be a small wedding b/c neither of us want a huge one anyways. That and we're aiming for casual and barefoot with dogs in the wedding party.
Tomorrow Alister and I are going back to his family's lakehouse for the weekend and then I'm meeting up with Alex and my mom at Oak Island on Monday. Hopefully this next week will be relaxing b/c when I return I have a LOT of packing and cleaning to do before moving back to my house.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
feeling : tired. 45 minutes on the wii fit wears me out.
listening : to obama talk on all 10 channels that i receive.
watching : the computer screen.
reading: a horrible nursing research book. last day of it though- the final exam is tomorrow.
loving : my pets and psodl.
disliking: that i'm too lazy to get up and run at 6am.
thinking : i hate money. north korea is like a much larger version of the columbine shooters. i should not have eaten that damn good ice cream last night.
hoping : my grandparents are doing okay. psodl and i work things out. i lose weight with the wii fit.
wishing : to win the lottery...like always.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
I did start seeing a therapist at ECU for some things and I really enjoy talking to her. I've always been a fan of therapists; it's a completely neutral person who will sit there and listen to you bitch and moan until you feel better. Who can complain about that? She also referred me to the school's psychiatrist and yes, once again, I am on happy pills (ie Prozac). They boosted me up once many years ago-maybe that will happen again. It's been rough recently.
This weekend looks promising. Tomorrow Alister and some friends of mine are getting together to make sushi (cross fingers against food poisoning). Saturday we're heading to Raleigh to spend time with our respective families for Father's Day and will return to thrilling, super-humid G-Vegas on Sunday. Hopefully it's an enjoyable, safe weekend for everyone and their dads.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
feeling : lazy as always.
listening : to LOST season 1 on DVD
watching : LOST season 1...currently Sayid and Locke talking about Boone dying.
reading: Pride and Prejudice and Zombies
loving : the thought that the end of summer school is only a few weeks away
disliking: the price of digital cable. Suddenlink is a rip off.
thinking : i need to get this assignment done so i can go to the beach Sunday.
hoping : my Grandma is doing okay.
wishing : to win the lottery...like always.
Monday, June 8, 2009
After everyone left (except for Edwin) Sunday afternoon I finished up my horrible paper on stem cell research and nursing (no connection...seriously) and sent some time visiting. Edwin's very frustrating to watch movies with although it was nice to finally visit with him (b/c I always loved spending time with him growing up).
Today Mom, Alex, and I drove to Winston Salem to visit Grandma, Grandpa, Pat, and Joyce. It was a nice visit but I wish Grandma were doing better. We had an a yummy lunch at Red Lobster and my parmesan crusted Tilapia was excellent. I returned to Greenville this evening and am back to hardcore schoolwork through June 24. Hopefully that goes quickly!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
I am looking forward to seeing family next weekend even though it's for Grandma Tripp's memorial service. I feel like I've gotten into a rut down here...mainly from summer school and having no job...so any change of scenery is nice. Hopefully Alister and I can get to the lake and beach sometime in the near future also. I think he's bored out of his mind too.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
feeling : lazy. super duper extra lazy
listening : to Indy purr and some random John Travolta movie on TV
watching : my computer screen (what else can I be watching if I'm typing on here???)
reading: The 13 1/2 Lives of Captain Bluebear...cute book. Odd
loving : not having clinicals right now
disliking: this gut I've started acquiring
thinking : I need to start writing my thesis and finding research articles
hoping : that the automatic litter box gets here before I go to Raleigh in 2 weeks. I love amazon.com but the free shipping can be really slooooooow
wishing : for rain...then I won't feel so lazy
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
In this class we have several quizzes and small assignments in addition to 1 large research paper. I was hoping the topics would be free choice but instead, we had to pick from a list based on a number we drew from a bag. With my luck, I didn't get to choose until the near end. My topic? Nurses roles in embryonic and stem cell research. I was drawn to the stem cell part; only after I chose it did I get the full part: nurses roles. Well crap. What the hell do nurses have to do with stem cell research? I don't know and neither does the internet. This should be fun.
I don't have any other complaints about the class though; there's mostly people I knew from class last semester and the rest of the writing assignments seem fairly easy and straightforward. I thought it was nice that our professor told us she handpicked us for her class (since she had the job of assigning all 200+ students to the 2 summer classes we have to take) so I wasn't surprised to notice that everyone in there did really good in her med-surg class!
After class I ran some errands (including buying a bunch of 2 cent stamps) and then came home to do some reading. Okay, lots of reading. I haven't even started on writing- for either class. Around 5 I decided to take the dogs on a walk (since Alister was at work) and that turned into one of the worst dog walking experiences ever. Needless to say- after an hour of trying to CATCH the dogs- they are on the back patio and will stay there until I can stand to look at them again. They may have ruined any chance of me ever walking the 2 of them alone again.
Hopefully the rest of the evening will be relaxing b/c I have a lot of writing to do tomorrow.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
feeling : worn out, unenthusiastic, tired
listening : to my dishwasher. something is wrong with it. it sounds like a war scene from a movie.
watching : my computer screen
loving : that the house doesn't smell like animals
disliking: that Rite Aid sold out to Target and now my bc pills are costing me through the roof again; the absurd books I'm having to read for summer school and the absurd price they're charging me to take online classes
thinking : i really need to start reading for class
hoping : that Grandma will get better. that summer school will be semi-easy and over quickly. that Alex and I can plan a trip at the end of the summer before she moves off to be a wife (for real). that this summer will be better than it has so far (lots of bumps and potholes).
wishing : that i could win the Powerball and stop having to get private and federal loans (i'm probably going to wish for those permanently)
Sunday, May 17, 2009
I didn't stay late- what can I say? I'm old, I need my sleep! So I made the loooong drive back to Garner and arrived in time to talk a bit with Sam before going to bed. This morning I got up and took her back to her apartment so she could meet up with friends to go to a new church and then headed over to Alister's parents house for some breakfast. I got in a nice visit with them while Alister spent another few hours in bed sleeping (him and his dad didn't get back from the AllStar race until 3:15am). We tried to go to The Flying Biscuit at Cameron Village but the wait was 30 minutes (despite plenty of empty tables) so we ended up at IHOP. Always a winner- I LOVE their apple cinnamon cream cheese stuffed french toast. Guilty pleasure.
The rain started pouring so I hung around my parents house for a little while longer and then met up with Alister to make the wet drive back to Greenville. The rain held off for the most part although the wind was incredibly gusty. Yay for driving and not getting hit (or hitting something else). Regardless, it was a nice little visit home even though my parents and Alex are in Salt Lake City. I'll probably see them again when I go back for Grandma Tripp's memorial service June 6.
Summer school starts Tuesday, and although the classes are mostly online, I decided to take both at the same time so I think I may be slammed with work. Both classes are writing intensive so that should keep me busy. I'm also trying to plan a visit to Winston Salem to visit with my grandparents- hopefully sooner rather than later!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
feeling : lots of things. it's a manic kinda week
listening : to some stupid soap opera running in the TV and the dogs scratching at the back door
watching : my computer screen
loving : that i have no school for another week
thinking : i need to come up with better things to write about on this blog
hoping : that Alister finds a job. that Grandma will get better. that Alister can sell the AllStar tickets so we can save some money. that summer school will be semi-easy and over quickly. that Alex and I can plan a trip at the end of the summer before she moves off to be a wife (for real).
wishing : that i could win the Powerball and stop having to get private and federal loans
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
That's all I've got.
Monday, May 4, 2009
On another note, Alister came to Greenville yesterday so that was a very nice treat. He left Durango on Saturday morning and made it to NC yesterday evening. He had planned on staying in Raleigh until Thursday to help his dad and let me study for exams but we decided he should come down for a quick visit and drop off all of his stuff. Thank goodness he's in nursing school; it was a big help in the studying last night!
The only plans I have this week are to finish exams, get the house spotless (for the first time in 6 months), and hopefully take a weekend trip to the beach for our anniversary. Oh, and maybe find a job. I miss working. Seriously. It makes me feel like a contributor to society rather than a drain on it.
Friday, May 1, 2009
eating : a fresh cut turkey sandwich on whole wheat and some green grapes.
feeling : still tired, worn out, and stressed. and after the exam today there's a touch of disappointment.
listening : to Roseanne on TV before I get my bum up to go study outside in the sun and Indy cleaning himself.
watching : my computer screen. soon to be my foundations notebook.
loving : again, the weather. it's so warm and nice out...finally!
thinking : school sucks. especially nursing school. I knew I'd hate it, I just underestimated how much.
hoping : that I do better on next week's exams than I did on the one today.
wishing : for the end of the semester to come quicker. for Alister and Baer to get here. for fondue-due at the beach next weekend. that my Grandma and Grandpa are going to be okay. to win the powerball.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
eating : nothing currently. although I'm thinking about some whole wheat spaghetti with meatballs and mushroom sauce and garlic bread for dinner...
feeling : tired. worn out. stressed. and it's only the second day of exams.
listening : to the fan blow, my dog bark in his sleep, and my cat snoring by the window.
watching : my computer screen. soon to be my health assessment notebook again.
loving : the weather. it's so warm and nice out...finally!
thinking : i need to quit procrastinating and study.
hoping : that the exam tomorrow goes as well as today's did.
wishing : for the end of the semester to come quicker.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Exams start Thursday and I'm not too concerned. There are a few I need to do well on but I spent so much time this semester learning everything that now it's just more of a review rather than a last minute cram. They're all done next Wednesday and then I have a few days before Alister and Baer come...yay! This summer should be an experience!
This evening I took Stetson over to the pond by Pitt Community College and he actually jumped in after a stick...and brought it back! Several times! I was so proud- he may be a bit of a water dog yet. It takes a while to get him dried again but the pond is fairly clean and well kept so he doesn't reek like he used to after chasing ducks at the med school. I'm just happy he got some exercise; we walked for about 30 minutes and he swam for another 15 so he should be fairly pooped out tonight.
Friday, April 24, 2009
- Sunday- I studied
- Monday- I had clinicals (luckily no poo this week) and then studied
- Tuesday- I had my final check off in health assessment which has yet to be graded, but if I have to do it again I wouldn't be surprised. We had to draw a system out of a bag and then do a full assessment on someone else including documentation afterwards. I drew the only system I couldn't remember well...neurological. After that I had my last foundations lab...yay...then came home and, you guessed it, studied
- Wednesday was my day of 2 big tests (the last 2 tests in two of my main classes). I did good on one, not so good on the other (b/c no matter how much I study I'm retarded in foundations). Then home to study which wasn't well accomplished b/c I fell asleep on my patho notes
- Thursday- Got up early and went to the library to attempt to study for patho one more time. I hate renal. If there had been a bunch of questions on kidney stones I would have felt more prepared. There was not. It's okay, I got a 104 anyways. Yay patho. Once back home I sat down to BS one of the stupidest papers I've ever had to write. I'll never be able to write a novel; I can hardly come up with a 3 page paper
- Today I had my last 2 classes of the semester and turned in the horrible paper. Hopefully my professor will still grade me well, b/c despite the content I think I have better grammar than the current generation of texters (who in turn write as if they're texting) and maybe it will just READ better than the others. As for the rest of the day, I'm taking it easier b/c tomorrow starts hard core study for finals next week
I was hoping to go to Raleigh tomorrow to visit with my aunt and uncle but I just have too much to do for finals so I'm going to attempt responsibility and stay here...in the library. Speaking of studying, there is a girl in my clinical group that drives me crazy sometimes. Now I have the utmost respect for anybody and everbody's religions, mainly b/c I have labeled myself agnostic lately, but sometimes I think people go a little overboard. Skip to said girl. She's a really nice, friendly person but she is VERY Christian. There's nothing wrong with that, except that she truly believes that when she does bad on a test, it's b/c God has better plans for her; when she does well on a test, she's glad she puts her faith in God. Sometimes I want to shake her and tell her that GOD DOESN'T AFFECT YOUR GRADES, STUDYING DOES. There's nothing wrong with having strong beliefs, but sometimes you have to jump back to reality and take responsibility for your own actions and decisions, b/c even if God loves you, he doesn't grade your tests. Just a fact.
Anyways, that's all I've got. The weather is supposed to be gorgeous this weekend ie hot and sunny so I plan to do some studying outside while getting some sun at the same time (with no less than SPF30 on mind you).
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Being the good doggy mom I am I took Stetson on yet another walk before dinner. My dog definitely does not like taking walks- especially on leashes. When he hears walk all he wants is free time to pee and poo on as many things as possible before nothing more comes out; when I say walk I'm thinking moving at a quick pace going as far as I can before I'm bored. Needless to say this disagreement proceeds with me walking and dragging a 60 pound dog 5 feet behind me for 30 minutes. Sigh.
After the walk I made some pizza (see people, I'm not jumping completely into the no processed foods diet) and then spent about 2 hours on the phone with my PSODL. Speaking of, I cannot wait for Alister to come home for the summer. It will be our first chance to really spend time together while still doing normal everyday life things (work, school, etc). I think it will be a good thing- at least I hope it is seeing as though we're trying to marry each other eventually. Time together is good. Very good. Not done enough.
Once we got off the phone I bummed around on FB for a little while, kicked some huge ass on Guitar Hero (okay so I'm still on easy but at least I get a lot of 99%'s), and then settled down with some popcorn and an oddly tasting mixed drink to watch "Get Smart" with Steve Carrell...too bad the Netflix DVD is too scratched up to watch. Now Harry Potter is playing and I'm reminded of how (dorkily) excited I am for the 6th one to come out this summer. :-)
Hopefully I accomplish more tomorrow b/c the 3 tests are coming quickly and I'd like to be able to run home to Raleigh for a day next weekend to see George and Ann...who I haven't seen in years....maybe?
Friday, April 17, 2009
- Sunday I got to enjoy Easter with the family and laugh at Alex while she attempted to set up a sewing machine (and I think in the end Super Joe actually did it). Oh and my Dad washed my car for me...that was nice of him. I always figured the excessive rain would do it for me.
- I spent 5 hours Monday in the operating room watching C-section after C-section after C-section...I went to bed with visions of vagina's and huge uterus' filling my head (not really a good thing).
- Tuesday was the simulation experience in the lab in which some of my fellow students quickly proved they will probably get sued or fired as future nurses and reminded me how important personal liability insurance is.
- Wednesday I had my last 2 lecture periods with 2 of my more favorite teachers. I still have exams with them next week but I will miss Dr. Neil and her Malaise (okay, well until I have her again this summer online).
- Thursday I pulled off a 108 on my pathophys exam. That was a nice boost for my smartness ego.
- Today I studied my bum off for a lung/heart/bowel sounds quiz in health assessment only to have my teacher give everyone that took it a 100. Sigh. I also went to WalMart and didn't get shot. That was nice.
Oh, and my clinical instructor gave me an "excellent" on the absurdly long case study she made me do last week. Did I mention it was long? Absurdly so? It was. I was surprised seeing as though I think she's out to get me b/c ironically I always get the patients whose faces appear in the dictionary next to "polypharmacy". Thank goodness this coming Monday is my last full clinical day (and yes, my patient is on twice as many meds as anyone else's). Semester is almost over...just a little longer.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
A little over a year ago I decided to try going off of birth control. Although I dropped 20 pounds, became happier, less hungry, and saved money I also experienced some moderately severe cystic acne on my lower face. I suffered from acne in high school but never had cysts like I did last year. Needless to say, I wasn't interested in looking like a package of cottage cheese so I went to a dermatologist for suggestions. Unfortunately she had only 2 options: birth control or Accutane. Well make that 1 option; I sucked it up and went on Accutane back in high school and even though it dried everything up, made my hair fall out, and destroyed my innards, it cleared up my face to the point of looking and feeling like a baby's behind. Because of that though, I wasn't given the option of going on it again (for further info see FDA website). Which leaves me with birth control. Sigh.
The dermatologist offered to start me on a newer (3rd generation) birth control by the name of Yaz. Yaz is one of the few birth control pills out there that is prescribed for acne. The downfall is that it contains a diuretic which can cause high potassium (yet help prevent bloating ie weight gain). I figured I'd give it a try even though insurance really doesn't like paying for it. Within a few months my acne had cleared right up, but on the flip side I ended up being part of the 10% of people that develop high potassium (google hyperkalemia) and got to enjoy constant muscle twitches and leg cramps. But the acne was gone so I stayed on it.
Skip to a year later...okay yesterday. I finally gave in and went off the Yaz...and off bc pills in general. One reason, and it's a good one, is that I'm getting close to 30 and as many people may or may not know, the older you get the more risks you incur while taking oral contraceptives. I have now worked with enough stroke, heart attack, and patients with clots to know that I am not interested in becoming part of that population. I realize that bc pills are not the only risk factors for the above issues but they definitely play a part. I was also tired of having twitchy legs everytime I wanted to enjoy a baked potato...and my God I missed peanut butter and banana sandwiches. On the down side, I'm afraid the cystic acne is going to come back full force.
So- I've been doing some reading (ie peer reviewed research articles b/c let's be honest, Wikipedia isn't perfect) and have found research that links several foods to acne (mainly due to toxins or food allergies). Since your skin is an organ and "bad" things exit your body partially through the skin, it does make sense that toxins or allergens could cause skin problems even if they were originally digested. That being said, I am about to embark on a diet of absolutely no dairy, no caffeine, limited alcohol (come on now- I need my champagne), and limited refined foods (good bye white bread and pasta) in addition to lots of yummy water. It may help, it may not. If not I'll be back to twitchy legs by the end of the year. At the very least I would have adapted a healthier eating lifestyle for at least a little while.
For anyone interested, I'll let you know how that works out. For those that have never had acne and could care less, well, go get fat or something. :-)
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Today in lab our scenario involved wound care (culturing and changing a dressing). I got to be an observer since I was the primary nurse for the previous scenario so my only job was to observe and write down the good and the bad. I filled an entire page with ONE good and the rest bad. Yes, it was that bad. And that's scary b/c we are at the end of our first semester and this is basic stuff. Rather than get into all of the silly details I will just say that the girls playing the nurses not only got the vital signs wrong and ignored the fact that she couldn't breathe (O2 went down) but they CHANGED THE WRONG WOUND. Yes. The wrong wound. The "physician's orders" specifically said the one on the backside and they changed the one on her leg.
I don't know about other people but I don't think I want either of those girls ever touching a wound on my body. Actually...there's a quite a few people I'm in school with that I don't ever want to touch me in a healthcare setting. It's scary.
Aside from that fun, interesting, scary experience today, school is as always. There are 2 weeks left + exams and the teachers are piling the crap on. In the next 2 weeks I have 4 tests, 2 quizzes, a research paper, and a final lab check off followed by a week of 5 cumulative exams. Sigh. I also had a brief freak out today when I found out that my private loan company is no longer doing private loans (thanks to Obama not helping them out like all the other fools and wanting all the federal aid to go to poor income families). I luckily was able to find ONE company that offered what I needed (thank you Wells Fargo) so I think I'll be okay until I graduate. But still, the last thing people in school should be worrying about is how to pay for it. Jobs wants people with good degrees so in my opinion, there should be no barrier to people getting those degrees. Still, just my opinion.
I'm also disappointed that I won't be able to go home Thursday for my grandma's graveside service, but I have a test at the same time as the service and although I would be able to make it up, it's the time of the semester when you do not want to get behind in anything. I'll be there in spirit since I'm usually not there in spirit in patho class. Hopefully I'll be there for the memorial service early summer, although if family members keep pushing it back I'll be back in school for the fall before it ever happens!
Why? Why? WHY????
And why do I have 500 pages to read by next week? That sucks too.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
I did spent ~4 hours yesterday on a case study my clinical instructor decided to punish me with but that was about it for school work. This morning my family went to the sunrise service at church and boy was it chilly...and smoky (no one was tending the increasingly smoky bonfire). But, it was nice to do something as a family and church tends to keep everyone relaxed.
When we got back home (after stopping at Krispy Kreme for fresh HOT doughnuts), Alex and I split some triple chocolate cake (compliments of Bud and Alice) covered in heavy whipping cream along with some champagne (it would have been mimosa's but we were out of orange juice). The family just puttered around inside and out and shortly before I left we had some honey baked ham, green beans, Hawaiin rolls, and mac n' cheese (compliments of Kenny's recipe).
I left for Greenville (YAY!!!) around 2 and stopped by my house on the way in to pick up some mail. The IRS sent me a large packet and at first I thought I was getting audited...but it ends up I didn't sign all of my forms. Yeah, so next year I'm definitely filing electronically although I may not have worked any jobs to pay taxes on. We'll see.
So now it's back to the grind and the long haul to get through with this semester. There's only 3 weeks left + exams and then I will have survived first semester...and not dropped out. Shocking right? The people-hater is slowly making it through nursing school. :-)
YES. I HAVE BEEN ENGAGED BEFORE. Oh my God...I think I'm the only person in the WORLD who has ever been engaged more than once. Guess that makes me an icon of relationship failure. Actually, NO. It doesn't. It means I was smart enough and mature enough to realize that the person I was engaged to was not the right one for me. Rather than jump into a marriage (ie lifelong commitment to another person) I got out of it before it became that kind of commitment. I wasn't interested in separating a year later, or spending years avoiding the person I lived with, or regretting my decision for the rest of my life and therefore living a sad, lonely existence. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten engaged in the first place. MAYBE. But I made myself one less divorce statistic by getting out before I got in too deep.
Which leads me to, I am so SICK and TIRED of the snarky "joking" comments that people have made. "Are you actually going to stick with this one?" "Congratulations for the third or fourth time" "Well maybe this one will actually stick" "Somebody better warn him about your relationship issues"
SERIOUSLY? How hard is it for grown, supposedly mature, adults to just be NICE and say congratulations??? I don't care if you go home and talk smack about me. I don't care if the entire time you're thinking "Oh that idiot is going to back out again"...b/c trust me, I think some pretty bad stuff about people but I'm mature enough to keep it within the confines of my own cranium. I really don't care what people think except when they feel the need to say it to ME. Why is it so hard to just let me be happy and enjoy my engagement...b/c believe it or not, I too am hoping this one will work out.
So just to sum things up, if anyone feels the need to say anything other than congratulations and when's the wedding, then trust me, if you say it TO ME (or to Alister), you will no longer be a welcome part of my life.
Thanks for reading and Happy Easter.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
- Don't smoke
- Don't get fat
- Eat healthy and drink lots of fluids that don't include alcohol
- Even if you do all of the above, if you live in wonderful NC, you will still get hypertension, diabetes, heart disease, cancer, or have a stroke...and get kidney stones from all of the Bojangles sweet tea
Lesson for the day: Life is short. Eat, drink, smoke, tan, be happy b/c no matter what, you are probably already screwed.